大扫除???

对，昨天晚上很夜了却睡不着... 所以便找些事情来做咯!!! 由于昨天刚买了些新的衣服回来，所以便“顺便”的将衣橱给收拾收拾咯!!! 来过我家开过我衣橱的人都知道我的衣橱凌乱的程度的咯... BUT!!! 这次我真的收拾整齐了啦... 欢迎来检查!!! 之后还是不累，便收拾一下床边的书和小桌子咯... 宝贝， Eddie, Xiao Hui, Karman... 你们都知道有多乱的咯... horr?? again BUT, 我也通通的收拾好了!!!!! 快拍手... ... *clap* 哈哈哈哈，thank you! thank you! 要newyear了，收拾收拾也是NEEDED的啦!!! 在收拾的同时，我突然找到许多张属于“我们”的纸条... ... 都是在班上和讲堂上所聊过的话题... 我都一一把它们再读一篇... 泪流了... 原来我们从以前到现在真的很多东西都在改变着... 你和我也有很多的不一样了... 现在原来该形容的是“你，我”而不再是“我们”了... 毕竟我们除了“普通朋友”之外也什么都不是了... 想念着以往我们的称呼，虽然只是叫爽，但也甜蜜... 想念以前“我们”的相处... 真的想念... 你，想念吗???

记得某天在某个地方某人问你“暧昧是什么?”，“你的暧昧的定义在哪里?” 其实那些话都是冲着我们来的... 她们是故意那样问的，也是我想知的一些... 在聊下聊下的同时，你说了一句

：“有时候那个男的只是在开玩笑，谁知那个女的却误会了... ...”

我的心被刺痛了一下... 总觉得这句话是说给我听的... 不管是不是，可听在我耳里其实是十分刺耳的!!! 那时我的泪也流了出来... 但我却转身的试着不让在场的任何一人看见... 果然!!! 我成功了!!! 没人看见yea!!! hohoho~~~ 但，我又再冒险的问了一句

：“暧昧能玩亲亲吗???”

：“不!!!” ， 你的回答...

这是我要的答案吗??? 不哦??? 那么，那次和那次是......??? 哦.... ... 我知道了啦，first time是礼貌，只不过是留在脸上的一个good bye kiss 而已嘛... 我干嘛当真当宝??!!! 很平常而已咯!!! 只不过我们给得比较神秘而已嘛... 因为不想让别人看见和知道...　另一次咧??  aiyorrr... 那次是我自己亲下去的，关他什么事啊??? 别人都没说要... 只不过在最后才“逼不得已”的会亲1，2下而已嘛... 有什么大不了的??? 对咯，有什么大不了的... ... ... ...

一次的一次心痛... 一滴的一滴泪都是自己的误会换回来的... 能怪谁??? 那句话

：“有时候那个男的只是在开玩笑，谁知那个女的却误会了... ...”

我了解，我明白，也知道了... 对不起，给你带来困扰了... 我会努力把自己拔出来.. 哈哈哈哈...

stop! stop! stop! stop! stop! stop! stop!!!!! is time for everything back to normal... but "you & me" can be back as in the very first "us"??? CAN'T... okies... i know.. thank for reminding... ^^,

carzy mii...

munZ*.*

boring Jusco walk...

today went Jusco with the sisters... mummy should be following but she follow daddy go for dating already... so just left back the 4 of us go on our own... hahahaha... actually Jusco got not much choice yet because still hanging lots of malay style out there... hey... not more then one month CNY coming izzit??? just because mummy wanna use all the vouchers then she want us go Jusco.. but too bad inside Jusco got not much things to buy.. but my sis brought one white dress... quite nice actually... i got try it too.. hehehe... wonder how i look when wear it... so... i tried it.. hohoho... then walk walk walk... nothing to buy already... so find out at other shop... manage to get some shirt lorr... hahahaha... then walk to the market... my said she wanna buy something for her car... but fail to find what she want... hungry dy..... then my sis brought the Big Apple donuts... the donuts still with Christmas packing... very cute leh.. if know got pack like that just buy this to the "ppl" lo... no need to think what to buy... no need to think what he like... but is too late already lo... i also finish packed his present... next time lorr... hahahaha... planning to go sg.wang or Time Square next or next next week... cox i still haven buy enough... T.T... hahaha...

ada cantik tak??? ada leh... tauh pun... wakakakaka...

boring shopping day..

munZ^^,

带我走!!!!!

每次我总一个人走
交叉路口自己生活
这次你却说等我走
某个角落就你和我

像土壤抓紧花的迷惑
像天空缠绵雨的汹涌 在你的身后
计算的步伐每个背影每个场景
都有发过的梦
带我走 到遥远的以后
带走我 一个人自转的寂寞
带我走 就算我的爱你的自由都将成为泡沫
我不怕 带我走


每次我总独自远走
保持缄默不皱眉头
这次你却说一起走
彼此温柔从此以后

像土壤抓紧花的迷惑
像天空缠绵雨的汹涌 在你的身后
计算的步伐每个背影每个场景
都有发过的梦
带我走 到遥远的以后
带走我 一个人自转的寂寞
带我走 就算我的爱你的自由都将成为泡沫
我不怕 带我走

白马溜过漆黑尽头
潮汐袭来浪花颤动
凝在海岸结成了墨

蔷薇朝向草原气球
邮差传来一地彩虹
刻在心中拍打着脉搏~

带我走到遥远的以后
带走我 一个人自转的寂寞
带我走 就算我的爱你的自由都将成为泡沫
我不怕 带我走

带我走 就算我的爱你的自由都将成为泡沫
带我走

saturday lorh...

still having account lec today... not wishing to wake up for attend it... but in the end still i manage to get awake from my very warmth bed.. hahaha... finished get myself in prepared then have to wake ppl up and start my way to coll... actually i like driving in saturday... cox on the way got not much car like weekdays... class end then Bao Bei, Rainbow, Eddie and me went wangsa for breakfast then Jusco for some purpose... not expected that Eddie will follow in the very first... but he is with us to Jusco cox we invited him to join our breakfast... i was totally forget that we will going to Jusco after our breakfast... haiz... fine... let fine some plan to make him lost from me... hahahahahaha... but he manage to found us... then he keep his mouth 270 degree up when saw us at Rxxxx... k, he caught what my plan is with his own guessing... omg... he always like that arr... always know what i'm trying to do.. funniest part is... he already knew what my plan is yet still he keep on said he knew... *hey... i knew euu already manage to guess out larr... but can just you keep on pretend???* always cant manage to give a real surprice... why he always know what im trying to do??? why he always like guessing??? why he always like to "kepo" arr???? too free already izzit??? iiiiiiiiiisssssssshhhhhhhhhh...... hey... i though you were best actor??? next time please continue acting although you know what i'm doing okay???!!! you really making me crazy larr... haiz... reach home no longer then went out again with my sis to buy some snacks and also my *small eddie* food and other stuff... know what...

AMPANG CAREFORE KFC NO GOOD IN SERVICES...

not to mention what, just experience it obn ur own.... they really putting me in fire... haiz....

Eddie, next time pleasa continue pretend...

munZ...

my very first SAMAN in my live!!!

iiiiisssshhhh... today car kena locked... cox i park at the "reserved for staff"... actually i dont know that area is for staff... i tot the space with car number only is reserve space... so i part there the place which no car number placed there... but who know that area is reserved for staff... haiz... so have to pay rm5 to unlock my tyre... walk to the guardhouse but they want us go to bursery... after the payment then have to walk back to the guardhouse agian and want them to unlock my tyre... blek... eddie*darling*... thx for the accompany for it ya... teehee... nowonder euu look handsome all the while... wakakakakaka... *make euu happy only larr* 

i think Karman angry on mii already...T.T.. sorry that i wake euu up while euu felt so sleepy and sleep very late yesterday... but actually i wanted to go sport complex to buy ticket already if euu din pick up my last call... but who know eddie called then euu pick and then pack also ur things come down.. really very sorry for that... dun angry liao larr... sayang back.. muaaaaaaaaaaaaaaakz.... and the miss.Lame*Xiao Hui* also another who woke late... then said she will be reaching at about 9.45 like that... but we 3 swim until 10.30... finished swimming already also she haven come... so.. we all also get up le... hahahaha... after bath... saw her miss call... and she said she reach but din see us in the pool... ofcox lar... we finished swim liao leh... hehehe... Hui, fat liao lo... this 2 days eat alots then today din swim.. wakakakaka.....

sorry Karman T.T

pity Hui,

thx Eddie ^^,

munZ~~~

ho~ho~ho~

hey hey hey.. merry christmas to everyone and especially to the PIG!!! today is christmas... let me make a wish first... *bla bla bla**bla bla bla* and *bla bla bla* what i wished??? wont be telling lorr ofcox.. wakakaka... but why christmas making wishes arr??? aiyor.. play play only marr... so serious for what???!!! *lame me*... today the whole family get a late woke up but guess what... i'm the earliest at about 11 something... ya... today my family get crazy.. cox even my dad also woke up at about 12 something... then went out to eat "Yong Tao Fu" as our breakfast... after that went shopping to buy present for tonight christmas party at cousin house... at about 6 something we leave from home... bringing the stupid *kopi* too... *trouble maker of the night* bla bla here and bla bla there... dinner finished... party over... the most intresting part is the motion of the kid... "Yew Yew" my baby cousin... each and every of his movement making ppl laugh only... he really damn damn damn CUTE... wish to have a son like him... wakakakakaka.... not surprice that everyone saying me getting darker and darker... ofcox lar... swimming marr... ^^,...and also because of someone made me in love with swimming... haiz... i dowan mention is who lar... the mr.Exxxx... i dont know who lar... k k k... joking only^^,... *but is really because of him!!!* teehee... 

圣诞节快乐^^,

munZ

christmas eve!!!

today should be holiday to people who study right??? but i got class.. T.T... so, Xiao Hui, Karman,Eddie and me decided to swim in the morning before HMO class... today is the last class for HMO lesson and also have to get our marks today.. so we have to attend this class... but i skip english, the following class.. cox have to back home early to my cousin's kindegarten... when reach... there were few cubby kids there... hungry already leh.. fast fast go eat first... mummy had brought duck rich on the way to the kindegarten... after finish my the very late breakfast...*becox it already about 2* then we all have to start busy prepare tonight party food... i made the sandwich... and other prepared other food... after finish prepared.. it is still early to me... so i fall asleep at the table there... while when i wake is almost 5 or 6 somethig... *don't blame... cox i really very tired!!!* after woke up then busy prepare things again for serve the guests... *all the kids* and when 7 comes... lots of "kitcy miao" comes... seriously all damn cubby... especially one girl who name *a lee* actually i do not know how to sleep her's name.. what i know is pronouns like that... hahaha...then... is time to busy with other staff... not to mention... hahaha... done a not bad job... and still manage to greeting to someone... ^^,

merry christmas^^,

munZ

last practical in sem 2!!!

today is the last practical for semester 2... suddenly felt that chef very handsome today.. okies.. stop talk crab again... ^^, 

today we got 6 dishes... my group made the potatoes & tomatoes soup and the dont know what sandwich... get all the ingrediant ready and start our job!!! know what... today we are not the last group who finish cooking... normally / usually we are the last... cox chef always relize my group in the very last... is that the sense of my group that low until the chef always look for us very last group??? sad.... joking only actually... cox i knew he is actualy busy with other groups... when class almost end... all busy packing... i suggest to give chef a thank you hug hug... teehee... *molest* hahaha... then followed by Karman and so and so and so.. still got who i dont know... cox after hug also i busy packing with my things... teehee... actaully i hug chef 4 or 5 time in front of peggie... just want to make her jealous!!!! hohoho... hey hey.. really not trying to molest him okies???? just because today is our last practical marr.. then chef also not sure that is that he will continue to teach us in year 2 practical... so... giving thank you and good bye hug is not a wrong!!!! blek!!! seriously will miss him lo... if he really not teaching us in next year.... hahahahaha... cox chef is a super dupper hyper cute and handsome chef!!! hahahaha...

the tomatoes and potatoes soup in process...

after the soup get ready... then need to bland with the cream... cox it is actually a cream soup!!!

first add the soup in to the bland...

then the cream milk... then start bland.....

deng deng deng deng... here come the final... hohoho...

from miss.LAME group...

ghost group's

rainbow and bao bei group's... is beef... so i didn't try it... cox i can't eat... hohoho

all the 6 dishes...

me with my soup!!!!! hahahaha

other's pic with chef will upload some other day... hahahahaha

will miss up practical daysss...

munZ^^,

我会努力...

试着把你忘记... 试着走出对你的感觉... 试着不去那么的想你... 试着不去爱你... 对，我们的关系现在很好，好得很... 我很满足... 可是，我就是怕... 我怕我们会渐渐的走远... 任谁也不能保证友谊的性命... 实在是很多事情的发生... 另我对很多东西的看法都和以往不再相同... 就连原来你一直都很信任的朋友，原来也会在你最无防备的时候，狠狠地捅你一刀!!! 那一刀，可说是以一段真挚的友谊所换回来的... 不想再提为什么了... 只觉得心好疼... 朋友，还能相信吗??? 所以现在不要说什么情侣夫妻会分开，就连朋友，原来都不长久的... 现在到底有什么是保证长久的??? 没了吗???

给反对我的决定的人，

是，他是不比谁谁谁好，不比谁谁谁出色，不比谁谁谁优秀，但那又怎样??? 我自己也不比别人好，不比别人来得出色，也不比别人来得优秀!!! 对... 有人追求是一件开心的事...而且，这并不代表我必须要和追求我的人交往阿... 你们到底明白我要说的是什么吗?? 你们到底知不知道感觉是什么??? 谈过恋爱的你们都知道我说的是什么吧??? 就如那天大胆的我... 我向他表明我喜欢他，可是我并没有要和他在一起啊... 因为我对现在很满意，只是，我只是想告诉他我对他的感觉而已.. 加上他也支持我说出来啊.. 这样比较舒服!!! 喜欢一个人不一定要拥有他，看见他的笑，自己自然就会笑... 这都是自己体验回来的... 试问一句，你们情愿和你不喜欢的人在一起，还是，和你喜欢的人，就算不在一起，也都甘愿??? 我会选择后者... 因为这就是我... 从来对爱情的选择都是错的!!! 很笨吧??? 因为明知不对我还是会爱... 反对我的你们，我知道其实你们都很关心我... 我其实也经已长大，脑袋也还能function，所以... 你们就让我自己任性一次吧... 了解我的你们，都知道我对爱是最没EQ的... 只会越陷越深!!! 抱歉常令你们担心...

给支持我的决定的人，

谢谢你们一路以来的支持和鼓励... 你们让我又那份勇气... 原来勇气真的不简单啊!!! 没想到我自己也有这么的一天!!! 这就是所谓的循环吧... 希望你们不用再为我而担心了... 我是不会后悔这次的决定的啦!!! 

yiii...这样说来，我不就不是暗恋，而是明恋咯... 哈哈，开开玩笑而已啦，别那么认真... 说真的，我现在真的在努力着把自己对你的感觉拉回出来... 我很怕自己会越陷越深... 我的弱点我要自己来解决... 我试着，真的在努力的试着... 可是，我又很怕我们会渐渐的冷掉... 我怕我们回不了温热的那个时候... 我不想失去那种感觉...

也许你已经忘了一切，也许一切过去对你来说不算什么... 可是对我... 这一切都很重要...  那个感觉... 我从来不曾忘记... 真的我没忘记过... 但，回不去了... 对不对??? 为什么???!!!

对不起，我会试着忘记你

munZ

happy 19th birthday handsome Eddie...

had planned to swim today... for sure me and Xiao Hui went swim at 9 in the morning today... Howie came late.. but very surprisingly that Jason and Nemo also come for swimming... hahaha... then we just play play play until 10.30 like that then get up... i went in to bath room abit earlier then Xiao Hui, so she manage to saw the muscle guy and i didn't... while i bathing... Xiao Hui suddenly run in and said " mun, faster come out, i saw a hot guy..." gay enough right??? that is Xiao Hui... she can't stop lame.. hahaha... after bath then fetch along Karman and the cake to Eddie's place... not surprisingly he still sleeping as a pig at home... then we joke with him because he still blurr blurr there and ask us what time while it is already nearly 12 in the noon... so the conversation is just this:,

Eddie: hey, what the time now...

Xiao HUi: is going to 9... faster lar.. we waiting you for swimming.

me and Karman looked at Xiao Hui and laugh..

Eddie: har??!! i not say i dowan swim yesterday liao meh??

me: haiyor.. we purposely come and fetch euu de leh...

Karman: yalor yalor...

Eddie: okay lorr... haiz

eddie believe and make up himself... but after he came out from his room then he shout at us "wei, you all bluff me... now is already 12 okies???" gay lar... hahahaha... funny that he still believe us in the very first.. and he also said that he realy wanna pack his thing to swimming since we so sincerity go his house and invite him to swim... hahahaha... but in the end we invite him to take our breakfast at somewhere nearby his house...  after passed him the cake... we sang for him the birthday song... felt like very gay lar we 3... all also because of you larr... iiisssshhh... hahahaha... and also he told me that he actually already know this surprise... ya lar ya lar... know euu smart lar.. always like to act only... chew!!! blek...  :P

hey, DARLING, 19 years old liao lar... big boy liao lar.. teehee... just hope euu like the cake.. happy that euu said that you like that cake.. hopefully this is not what you said out just to console me... hahahahaha... emm.. again.. wish you happy all the way ya.. and ofcox always handsome lar... i know you wil said that euu already very handsome!!! blek... hehehehe...

no pictures provided...

munZ*.*

learned to bake a cheese cake...

today after class Bao Bei followed me home and mummy teach to back a cheese cake... first ofcox need to get ready with all those funny ingredients... then look at the recipe book for the steps... i forget most of the steps... but what i remembered is... there is 3 part of baking the cake... first A, then B, lastly is C... hahaha... then add all this 3 in and mixed together... then finally done.. and ready for steam... teehee... those pic is with Bao Bei.. so wil be show maybe in the future.. wakakakaka... tomorrow is some one's birthday... planning to give him some surprise... but actually i'm in tension and nervous... just wish everything will be going fine... 

my mind is blank now...

munZ*.*

movie time...& happy birthday Vivian...

today after HMO class we the gang... Carol, Janiss, Peggie, Jason, Nemo, Ah Mo, and me went Kepong Jusco for a movie... i dont know what show is that... but... emm... cox is Carol who brough the ticket for us... but just because of me have to rush back home... so have no choice to choose other movie.. i'm really sorry for that ya... Xiao Hui actually is actually joining for the movie too, but in the end she didn't... after movie for sure i need to back home lo... funny that Carol said that next time when comes to movie, she never ever want to sit with Ah Mo... because he very disturbing... hahaha... while on the way home... inside the car is full of joke... i nearly can't get to see the road while laughing non-stop at there... cox while laughing the eye will become smaller... teehee... then at about 9 somethings i went out again with the sisters... to attend Vivian 20th birthday... then reach home at about 12... good night... wanna sleep le... hahaha

wow... what a short post!!!

munZ*.*

finally i learn to bake Pizza^^,

yea... today my group learn to make seafood pizza... but actually is not my first time to bake a pizza... cox last year i do follow the school to Domino's pizza which at mid valley... i already learn the whole process of baking a normal pizza... wakakaka... chef actually wanna us to choose number which to cook... pizza is no.5... so i ask Carol purposely pass the no.5 to me, cox she is the one who write the number... i want to make pizza cox since start learn cooking until now, other's group got the chance to make... but not my group... so... understand why i want to play cheat!!! teehee... forgive me please... thank you!!! *lame again* after class then Karman and me went Bao Bei house for Mao Mao again... kakakaka... then go buy sausage... hey mr. sausage... you are damn funny ok??? wakakaka... but don't know why Karman and me like to disturb him.. maybe he is good to be disturb.. ooopppsss... sorry to said that... hahahaha... okies... the today's me is damn damn damn crazy at the kitchen... i also don't know why... just hyper-active... Carol said i'm different from last week... haha... i am... coz i did released something... hohoho... but the crazy me only is me right??? wakakaka.... just please be used to it... hohoho...

ingredient for my group seafood pizza...

in process...

ready for bake!!!

other group's mom mom...

the salad...

actually i not very know what this 2 is... hahaha

the garlic bread... know what?? the top of the bread is really FULL of garlic...

look at Carol aka Da Jie... she the one who usually do preparation and also decoration..

rainbow... rainbow... haiz...

miss lame & the hamster...

this 100% not mii!!!!

i'm back to normal..

mean crazy larr....

MUNZ^^,

a brave sigh of me...

omg... since when i'm that brave??? guess what???!!! i told him that i fall for him... finally felt relief after throwing out all my feelings to him... very unexpected that my first experience was him... actually he is totally out from my type... but just don't know what i will fall for him... and just can't wait to tell him all my feelings to him.. and finally, i did it... i was actually thought to give up all the while... but, i fail all the time... 

yesterday, in a sudden, just feelings like wanna tell him... then i called him up... he do picked up... i just crab with him... i knew that he already knew what i wanted to tell him... but yet still he acting all the while and also joking around with me... hey... really thanks a lots for all the acting and talk crab with me just to make me relax... but end up i just said bye bye...

struggling for the day... finally in the night... i called him up again... but... i just like want say but not too... just keep on delay... then in the end also i didn't said any thing and line cut!!!

but recieved a msg from him and requite me to say out what i want to say in the very first... then i was just like thinking of die then die lar.. so i told him... brave enough horr??? come on.. clap for me lar... *clapping* hey... not joking man... this is my first and only i think i can be that brave!!! but actually i just want to let him know the feelings of mine and not want anything from him... haha... because now what important for us is STUDY... i know you all sure will say since when i be that good girl... but hor... I AM A GOOD GIRL!!! wakakaka... 

just at least i let him know the feelings of mine lo... i know i won't regret after telling him all this!!! 

let me tell you what, you said that you enjoy what our relation now.. me too.. we have our own understanding, our own relation, our own talk, own smile, and everything.. wakakak.. anyways... thx for the acting... ^^,

crazy day of mine..

munZ^^,

bla...

guess what?? we all the gang late for the English class for one and the half hour... geng leh??!!! i knew that... not that we wish to be late... is force too... we all sleep at about 5 something in the morning... really can't hear the alarm that Xiao Hui had set before we sleep.. then all also lazy lazy dowan to get up... so in the end... we late... then teacher said wanna see us... then we were just like omg.... huh?? wanna see us?? die liao lo... so then all fast fast rush to coll... just because today got English group discussion, yet still we late for it, ofcox teacher will angry lar... but just wanna tell that we really not mean to be late... just that we all over sleep and cox of all sleep very late yesterday night... yesterday the kithchen also haven finish.. so tonight all decided to stay at Eddie place... hahaha... then after class we... Karman, Eddie and me went pasar malam... teehee... is raining actually, then just buy something to eat and back Eddie's place... omg... they brought "chou dou fu" iiisssshhh... damn smelly lo okies!!!! know what???!!! i fall asleep again at his bed... just to wait for Xiao Hui... but in the end Xiao Hui didn't come... so we continue again at about one something... hahaha....

rush rush rush and rush!!!

munZ

BBQ night!!!

such a long time didn't BBQ already lo... tonight BBQ main persose is to celebrate Ah Mu birthday... he is leaving soon... emm.. what i mean he leaving is he going to stop this course he studying and start another course which he like... but he said he will finish this semester or also next... i think i will miss him.. teehee.. Mu is a tall and skiny guy... he forever only black and white.... i went his place before... his shirts are all black and white... no other colour... even his pants!! funny right?? ya... i know is funny... but that HIM!!! hehehe... after class we the gang went Genting Klang for buy cake... after brough cake is still early for us, so we went Bao Bei's place for her mao mao... recieved a call from carol and said that not enough thing to BBQ, so we the gang went Jusco to buy more things.. then BBQ time....... waited so long.... Mu will join us late at about 11... so we the classmate just enjoy ourself very happly at Nemo place.. ^^,... we also play games at the playground which near to Nemo house... we even too noisy and disturb other sleeping and kena complain... oooppppssss sorry.. we don't mean too do so.... finally Mu come... we took out the cake then celebrate luu.... we play on with the cake too... we even play true or dare... hahahaha... ofcox i kena!!! they really dare to play arr!!! not bad... teehee... 

after BBQ, Xiao Hui, Karman, Bao Bei and Eddie came my place overnight for the assignment... but all reach home just sleep on my bed... ooopppsss... not all... is just the Eddie and Xiao Hui... really cant wake them!!! fire mii larr... issssshhhhh... but finally also the 2 pig woke up... but then Karman turn to fall asleep... fine... i know that we cant finish the Kitchen assignment by tonight... since Xiao Hui and Eddie is awake.. so we discuss about English group discussion for tomorrow... then around 4.30, Xiao Hui said she hungry... then we went down and cook maggie mee... ofcox only she the one who eating... hahaha... after finish eat... we sleep at the sofa... 

tired night...

munz

something from me to you...

你们最近都走得很近...

我们最近却走得很远...

这其中代表着什么呢？？？

我的泪今天又很不听话的流下了...

我真的控制不了...

还好，

好好没有人发现我的泪...

我掩饰得成功...

假装得厉害...

突然间有佩服着我自己的感觉..

我一直挣扎着到底要不要把所有的事都告诉你...

我很想...

可是我却拿不起勇气来...

面对着你...

我仿佛不是我自己...

到底怎么了???

我也不能说个清楚明白...

总觉得只是朋友就好...

可是却会流泪...

总觉得保持距离就好...

可是却会不舍...

总觉得我们默契很好...

可是却并不是...

其实你知道我说的是谁吧???

你也原来不会在乎..

对吧???!!!

很多时候我希望我们能回到从前...

但原来不能...

很多时候我希望我能有一份勇气...

但拿不出来...

很多时候希望你会明白对你的一切...

但原来是不可能...

很想告诉你..

对你我原来是真的有感觉的...

现在...

一切的一切都太迟了吧???

对...

太迟了...

但我很想问一句..

你对我，真的有动心过吗???

只想说爱你...

munZ

finally HMO assignment finished!!!

second and last working in this year!!!

yesterday is my first time to work.. then today i work again, which mean for sure this is the second time i working lorr... but also 100% confirm this is the last work in this year... wakakaka... reached karman house at about 12.30, wait at her house and also do our make and dress up!!! wakakaka... why still i got the time to make up there? just because need to wait for miss.Lame in our class.. Xiao Hui lorr... haha... 1.30 only she reachedKarman house... guest what?! she haven get herslef to be done for the work later... then bla bla bla until 2 only we finally want to leave... fetch along Nemo and Ah Mo... drive quite fast today... take about 10 mins plus to reach Nikko from TBR... ^^,..today do lots of things.. at first i very happy that i did not kena on baverage serving... but i now regreted... food serving is much more suffer then the beverage... the food is damn heavy... i really cant carry that... lucky still got ppl who which i donno that came to lend mii their hand... really thx alots and felt sorry for the disturb... i really cant believe that bao bei who so small size can take things that heavy like shit and i cant.. ya.. i cried again... just because of this... i cried.. cox feeling myself like very useless... what also cant do.. even bao bei can and i CAN'T!!!! really sad enough... but people that i serve in my table really really very kind... keep on asking me about my coll life... and also ask me to take their food.. sorry larr.. thx for treating me that good.. but i really can't eat... cox i'm WORKING!!! hahaha... even the chef... ask me to a small kuih.. but i really not feeling to eat.. cox buzy like shit.. wakakaka.. then he thought that i not dare to eat.. teehee.. happy that i gain another kind of experience... after work... we the gang, Karman, Nemo, Ah mo, Xiao Hui, and Howie went genting klang station 1 for "lim teh" wakakaka... reach home at about 2 then now need rush assignment again...T.T

tired... leg can throw away liao..

munZ

first time working for salery!!!

today is my first time working... at Nikko Hotel... no any special feelings actually... felt surprice that i didn't get any other feel like happy, excited, hoping, wishing, and etc... woke about 7 something this morning.. i actually also wondering why i woke so that damn early... but nothing much to care about it.. then get myslef be done.. then stuck my ass in front of the TV, watching "lan qiu huo"... finally i finished this show.. teehee... felt so happy.. finish the show is already about 11... after getting all done prepare, went pick up Nemo, bao bei and rainbow... then straight went Nikko Hotel.. for sure, we are reach early.. so then we went to take our breakfast + lunch... teehee.. Pizza... wow.. damn full actually.. Pizza finished... what we do?? wakakaka... SS-ing lo... about 2 something we back to change and so on.. walk walk walk... Bao Bei is the 4th time working orhx.. yet still she bring us wrong way for 2/3 times today.. wahaha... finally work start!!! omg.. i choosed to be serving beverage... i believe that who had work for Nikko hotel before should know serving beverage is a damn tired work... or for ppl who working for Hotel... everyone should be knowing the feel... damn tired right? finally today i get the chance to be tired up myslef... kakakaka.... i like it although today is damn tired and abit "be song"... at least i gaining lots of experience... i get to know how they work out whenever a function run up... i know what they doing front and back.. i know that the feel of working for salery... i know how TIRED they are.. i happy that i finally get to work... i happy that i earn some experience... i happy lots of things... now what?? have to rush assignment liao.. T.T... sleepy....

made of: cheese, salf, papper, chili & tomato sourse and abit pepsi...

our's Pizza

the meal...

i tring that weird things that i made..

taste not bad lo...

pointng at you!!!

-6-

-8-

-9-

-10-

actually got 1-10...

but i lazy to post up..

the camera man...

but in the end effect by us..

SS-ing!!

tired mii...

munZ

role play day!!!

yesterday was HMO role play and also today... today's is english... two two role play also very funny... wakaka... lets talk about yesterday first... heemmm... our group role play is a customer left his BRAND NEW IBM laptop in our meeting or function room and went out for lunch... because of staff had tole him that he can do so.... but.. after he back from his lunch and his laptop lost... wakakaka... then he start to scold the staff and also speaking impolitely to the S.A... so... in this role play... Joy is the customer -Mr. Edwin-, Eddie is the -staff-, i'm the -S.A-, Joyce is the speaker of the very end and Yin Mei is the speaker in the very first.. where is Funnie??? she is the lost staff!!! teehee... and... of cause our role play very successful... unfortunately, i didn't capture any pic in the day... teehee...

then today... today suppose to be our swimming day... but... they 3 swim and i didn't... because i didn't have swim suit.... sad sad sad!!! then i spending my time at club house doing my HMO assignment... so hardworking right??? *memang punya lar...* then wait the 3 until 11.. then bath... hey.... we bath together... but ofcox is without the pig... cox he not a girl... wakakaka.... then rush to class for the role play presentation... class start 12... for sure we have to rush... but lucky we are the last group... because that we really did not have any script... all live talk... but we do plain out the story of the role play... hehehe... today's role play is "a terrified robbery victim".... Xiao Hui is the -guard & police-, Eddie is the "robbery", Karman is "robbery & police", Nicky is "manager", and me.. i'm the "staff & robbery"!!! because our group is lack of people... *for every group also lack of ppl lar...*so.. each of us playing 2 character... hehehe... damn damn damn fun and enjoy... hehehe...


the 3 us...


yea.. again.. us


the lame partner and mii

her & him

pretty mii...
wakakaka

where is another 2 member??? lost!!!!!

happy role play days
munZ

cooking day^^,

mushroom source...

others group's...
i "ge po"


by : xiao hui, chef, and mine....
wakkaka...


before....
and....


after....
see what..
is clean leh...


look at the hamster Joy... (right)


eggs.....
bread shape belongs to Carol...
and the love shape belongs to Xiao Hui...


our chicken....
really nice....

no wording....
just picture...
cox lazy...
teehee...

a lazy day of mine...
munZ

smiling moon....

guest that lots of people had saw the moon just now... it's look like smiling horr??? so damn cute... (*_*)<<< damn cacat.. i knew... wakakaka... the 2 stars as the eyes and the moon is the smile... hehehe... i actually can't get to see... i walked around the house but yet still i cant see it... then i was just like"yerr... i want to see lo" and also kinda sad... finally also i get the see the moon... i walked up to my room and open the curtains and yes... i saw it... wakakakaka... the moon is just like smiling with me... so damn sweet... ^^,

learn to smile as the moon does...
munZ

learning and wondering...

may be now is the time for me to let go...
your hand...
your heart...
your breath...
your warmth...
your smile...
your joke...
your everything...
is not belongs to me...

i knew that in the very first...
but...
how i wish...
just one minute...
or even one second...
i can hold your hand...
i can hug you up...
i can kiss your lips...
i can say i love you...
i can look at you...
everything i wish too...
but i know everything now is already too late...
what should i do now is give up...
yes...
learn to give up...
learn to forget....
learn to be strong...
and of cause learn to be smile all the while...
i know i can do it...
i believe in myself...
actually i just wish i be that brave....
then that i can tell you i love you...
but unfortunately,
i'm NOT!!!
i don't know what will you respond after that...
i choose to hide everything from you...
just being whatever we is now...
pure...
just that pure and nothing else....
i wonder when is the right time...
i wonder when will you believe me...
i wonder when.....

is a brave to fall for you...
munZ

student exchange day!!!

yea, Japaneses students came our college today... only me and Eddie taking a group of 6 people... but Janice more worst... her group member don't know at where... disappear... pity her lo... teehee... mine also not seems that good... i can't communicate with them... iiissshhhh.... only keep on "so re wa bla bla bla des" then, "tosokan", "toire", "sokudo"then... some more what? no more.... hahaha.... feel so sorry lo... this is the second semester i study for Japanese... yet still can't get to communicate with them... haiz... no comment with it lorr... so end up we just communicate in English... hopefully they understand what i said larr... haha... just because of hard to communicate... we end up just like didn't talk much with them... i think they sure felt so boring there host is us... just felt so sorry to them too... haha... after that then rush to Karman house and bath cox wanna go for interview later... meet up with he gang at bus stop at 2 and lucky we didn't late for it since is abit jam there... after the interview done we went sg.wang for a walk... then also sing fews song there... and today we got a follower.... wakakaka... which is Lum Kar Man... teehee... she not in my group but she followed us to interview... just to replace some one... haha..

made a final decision^^,
munZ

cooking day...

yea... Tuesday again... yea... happy again... wakakaka... today we prepared fish again... beside that... we also cooked Spinach... really headache with chef Brain luu... he always left my group behind... my group forever the last he will consider... T.T... so our group forever the last only done all our things... we actually planned to play basketball after kitchen... and also dinner after basketball... but end up didn't play... i also don't know who's fault... we reached basketball court and stared to call up nemo and ah mo... but no one answer the phone.. fine... in the end we leave... me and Karman went Bao Bei place to play "mao mao"... wa... it change her fur color already lorr... seems more gray now.. haha... then end up chit chat at Bao Bei's room.. we 3 suddenly talk about own "history"... sound funny... ya.. we talk alots of different of our pass... and yes... she know lots of things that other don't know... i actually not wish or willing to tell out... but in the end....... ..... ..... ... *sweat enough* but of cause she not know everything just because i still keeping... i just wish that was my own memories and not to share with other...


i'm actually also blur enough with what i tell them... and also don't know what to do since the problems appears or started... we discuss and giving suggestion to each other... felt so lovely... hope that she will keep our secret... teehee... i know she will... this is what really can't let other know... because i don't wish too...... i actually always asking myself... what is those stupid weird feels that always appears when he is there... i really tried to cover myself very hard... i wish to success all the time... but it doesn't... i got no other way do let things be fine... just hoping everything maintain... although i knew he seems further away from me... at least i still keeping that feels with him and me in the very first we started... although it just a short period... but is already enough for me... but somethings that i really wish to tell you that is "i really didn't play with our relation in the very first..." i know you wont believe it... but i just wants to tell you... and i know you wont listen... i even knew that everything is too late to be mention or explain... misunderstand is misunderstand...
my only sorrow...

everything is too late???!!!
munZ

周杰伦 － 说好的幸福呢

你的回话凌乱著
在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱著歌
假装没事了

时间过了 走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了 倦了 我哭了
一开始的不快乐
你用卡片手写著
有些爱只给到这 真的痛了

怎么了 你累了 说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数著你再不捨
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得

你不等了 说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪乾了 放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转著
要怎么停呢

你的回话凌乱著
在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱著歌
假装没事了

时间过了 走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了 倦了 我哭了
一开始的不快乐
你用卡片手写著
有些爱只给到这 真的痛了

怎么了 你累了 说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数著你再不捨
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得

你不懂了 说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪乾了 放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转著
要怎么停呢

怎么了 你累了
说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了
爱淡了 梦远了
我都还记得

你不懂了 说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪乾了 放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转著
要怎么停呢
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just received this song from Karman yesterday... can't believe that i cried for this song... yesterday is the first time i finished the whole song... ya... is the first time... in the pass i just listen to the radio and every time also just halfway listen it... i dont know why... so finally i get the full song... then the whole day i just listen to this song and keep on repeat and repeat... my tears... falling and falling... cant control... iiissshhh... how long i didn't cry for a song?? but then how come i will cried for this??? i wondering... haha... i like the lyrics... for me is touching... this song making me recall my memories... and the now him.. i think my heart is with him... but i dont dare to admit it... he seems like getting further and further away from me... i hate the feelings that he said whatever that hurt me... i dont know that with his purpose or he didn't mean it... but... is really hurting me... i wish to get back the very first feelings that belongs to us.. the me and you... is this possible? will the feels coming back? will you coming back too??? i'm now acting to be just friend... very pure friend... with not crossing both line... this is what you set me in the pass... lots of things that i now really dont dare to do... not like in the pass... i will just go for it whenever i want...now, i fear to lose... i affair that you will leave me alone here... i dont want... i just want you stay by my side... even we are just friend... I'm satisfied with it...

hey... "i think i love you"... how i wish just one day i dare to shout out loud and let you know... but i wonder when is the day...

heart???
munZ

re-do???

damn shit okies??? haiz... tot that after pass up the assignment then everything fine even i know i will get no mark for it or mayb low mark lar... but i okay with it... and also got no comment with it too... but suddenly the lecture said that wanna return the assignment and want us to do again... hello... ms.Gan... you expecting my group member will re-do for you?? is impossible... the one who doing is only me... what you what me to change and re-do for you??? i got no any idea... i had already give out what i want to my group member... but that is what they gave me and wanna pass up... so... what should i do is just pass up to you what they pass to me... that all... i had already done my part with my full effort.... and one more... i NOT copy and paste from the net.... don't said that everyone is copy and paste... if you really with that my part is also copy and paste so then i will do so... is a very easy job... then i no need to think to change every word that from the net... lucky that yesterday who you meet is not me... if not... i think i will just start on my fire in front of you... what i just want to said is i cant corporate with this kind of member... you... you.... i dont want to mention out your name... but i know that sure i talking about you.... dont put on my fire any more... hey... this is a group work.. can please show me what is team work???/ did i ask from you much??? did i???? everything i already separate each by each... who need do wish is chosen by you guys own choice... to be fair i already mix every 2 in 1... i even write down the website for each every of you... but in the end... what i get???? just 4 or 5 pages???? only copy and paste???? what the hell is going on??? if you all dont wish to do.. just tell... i can just tel the lecture that you all not wish to do any assignment... so... no point wasting ur time for me... 5 pages.... omg... 2 perayaan you just manage to get 4 short page and 1 pic... hello... come on lar... dont make my mark down okay??!!!! i even help you find more... but yet still you giving me rubbish... expecting i will help you change or do it for you..??? excuse me... NOWAY i will.... that's me... ya... i'm such a bad member that with you all.... if i'm bad... then what about you guys???? GOOD????!!!! damn it okay... and another... why you guys can do very good in OWN assignment and also the presentation???? you... that day i saw ur presentation for the english... wtf... you can do that good for your own... but come to group assignment.,.. what you pass me???? SHIT.... yes... totally SHIT..... no more joining such member again in future assignment... is horrible okay!!!! damn it.............

cooking day~~~

yeah.. whenever comes to Tuesday... i will very excited... because every lesson we will learn something new and also more and more different... today... we learn to cooked fish and chip... i actually wait a long long time to learn this... actually we already heard this one week before... who know last week we cook different things.. but i still ok with it... beside that, i also learned to make maselow... then the other group prepared sauces, french fried, spaghetti, and also bread... i think that all, if i not forgotten... chef device things that we need to do to each of the group... then all busy doing this and that... no one got free time to entertain me... wakakaka... okies... i didn't do much disturbing.. just because everyone is busying.. including me... if not... *imagining*wakakakaka... finally... all done.. ofcox also our fish in the very last... then chef show us how to do some decoration with each every dishes... after that... our turn to do so.. we also get to eat the chicken that we help to prepare!!!!! wakakak... then finally... itarakimasu.... *いたらきます* and ofcox... oishii*おいしい*wakakaka.... then today our class finish before 6... first time that early.. teehee...


chef is demo-ing...


my group's fish...
and also the maselow!!!


the salad...


the spaghetti...


the bread...


mine!!!

enjoy cooking...
munZ^^