lost~~~

i'm totally lost my way now... i have no idea how to move my next step... i hate myself for being so useless and brainless and hopeless as well... how can i bring people who so caring about me in sad and worry that who will always stayed beside me when i needed them... how can i hurting myself to payback whatever they treat me good?? what they want form me is just wish i can live happily and cheerful... i do live happily and cheerfully whenever they around me... but i'm sorry to say all what you gals see that is juat what i'm pretending all the while.. i'm so sorry for the pretending.. i just dont wish that i making you gals worry for me...

i cant stand any more by now... i really have no idea how to continue pretending that i'm ok anymore... can you all just teach me what to do?? i really wish i could just leave away whatever that not belongs to me anymore.. but.. i couldn't... i tried so hard before... but what the result for tried so hard is just my tears still continuous falling... so... i really have no idea now... i dont know what the hell that i can do now to recover everything that heppened so deeply remembered in my heart!!!

i have no idea what the shit is in his mind now... guessing guessing and just non stop guessing with no and accurate answer that i can get from all my guessing.. i do tried to ask for my answer... just because i have the right to know for my question... but what i get from the respond is just a idiotic shit answer that not related to my question.. son of the bitch.. hell for that... totally wtf man~~~

what can i do now?? i really tired of everthing now.. especially guessing.. i dowanna keep on guessing about ur mind anymore... cox i really have no more evergy... but... how manytimes i do mentioned that i dowanna care?? but... until today... what drive me crazy??/ is just still because of my guessing!!!!!!! heart sick man~~~

just one day... maybe one day i would really make myself saying good bye~~

哭屁啊??!!!

算你有种
你真的很有种
我真的是低估了你在我心里的重要性
今天的我又再一次的因为你而又哭了
这么久以来
我的泪不曾因为你而停止过
到底我做错了什么??
我以为放得下你
可是为什么我还会因为你无意的话而流泪??
我真的很后悔我自己还是那么的关心你
我真的不知道你永远真正的在想些什么
因为你不曾告诉过我
为什么???
你到底在想些什么??
能明明白白的告诉我
让我知道吗??
你们.
你们到底是不是知道些什么??
能告诉我吗??
我拜托,
我恳求
我真的很想知道你到底在想些什么
我到底做错了什么??
明天就将会是10月了
很好
我很开心我能撑到今天
但
我很难过因为我还因为你而掉泪
我知道对你的一切都是不值得
但
我真的没有办法如何控制我自己
今天是9月的最后一天
我真的很希望我不会在因为你而掉眼泪
没错
我知道我的眼泪不算什么
对你来说一点都不值钱
可是
对我来说
眼泪都是我的财产
它是属于我身上和心灵上的一部分
每天都因为你而流失
最后换来的是什么??
一句负心的"不可能~"
那为何和别人你就能???
她到低是谁??
为何能让你那么不顾一切的放一切去爱而看不到在你身边的我??
我每一次为你流泪时你知道吗?
我每一次忆以往带着微笑胡闹的我们你又记得多少
我每一次心疼你的时候你给我的回应又是什么??
我傻够了
也笨够了
经历了那么多
没想到我还是不会反省
没想到我还是败在你手里
没想到一切的一切只有对我重要
而你
却可以抹的干干净净
你到底甚怎么做到的??
可以教教我吗??
我真的很希望自己能像你那样潇洒
竟然可一一觉醒来就忘得一干二净
我的心
很痛
真的很痛
我不懂要如何让它不再痛下去
我到低还要因为你而流泪多少次???
有时候我真的有很不想见到你
可是往往天意就是爱作弄人
我斗不过任何人了
我只能顺着你走
我
很累了
真的累了

我真的很想~~~你

happy mooncake festival^^

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then now, my present^^

01.08.2009

my lunar 21st birthday celebration..

i knew is kinda of long time ago dy..
but to forgive mii now only i free and remember to update^^

a birthday kiss from my baobei and karman^^

munz, janice, funnie, joyce,cousin, xiaohui

munz vs xiaohui

with the darling^^

with the baby^^

with the karman aka cartoon face

carol aka dajie and mii

joy~

mii and fongyii*dear*

joy with kopi

joyce and mii

munz, peggei

mii and dexter...

vinny and mii

mr.hong^^

dennis, baobei, lili, xiao, karman, spirit, dexter

open ur mouth big big lar~~

very blur leh~~

finally^^
fangyii's sis, joyce, munz, fangyii, janice, xiaohui, joy, peggie, carol

lingzzz bf, lingzzz, mii and cousin sis*zhi ling*

h8ian^^

lily, xiao, mr.hong, dex, munz, baobei, vinny, dennis, karman

us again^^

xiao , munz, lily

mr.hong, dex, munz, vinny

us again..
but with baby now*283*

hug hug

my baby

everyone was laughing this my family pic
hahahahaha

fighting??
i kinda found this pic funny^^

then a nice one^^

gui, munz, fen

cousin kelvin and his wife^^

another couple^^

gals pic^^
with the guang fa family

that all lar.. still got lot more.. but lazy dy to update^^
some more got lots also blurr blurr geh~~
hahahaa
once again..
thx for everyone who came..
and thx for the present
tx for the wishes..
thx for everything...

dinner time^^

just came back from my very full dinner^^ is actually because my mom so wanted to eat nice crab and so my dad bring^^.. see... how sweet my parent always be... hahaha... just now dinner not just only our family... also with dad's partnership friends!!! i knew them since my childhood...

we went vacation plenty of times with then before especially uncle Gobar and his GF~~ they are all funny ppl and like to play and joke around.. hahaa... so.. whenever travel with them sure we will sharing lot and lot of fun..

back to topic^^

why that my mom so wanted to eat the crab?? that because my mom was actually went Penang and Ipoh with my cousin for searching nice and fresh seafood to eat last week... but since the day one till she back and continue the all one day trip with her so loved daughter us also she didn't got to eat any that fulfill her.. mummy was very no mood~~~

so finally today dad brought her to her favour restaurant which located at ampang area... hahaha... then today cox there are 12 pax of us.. so the portion definitely more^^ until i so full now~~

that day i ate crab.. tot wont itcy but i does!!! when in the middle of the night.. wtf~~~ so today... dad ordered lot of crab and i ate non~~~ shit... hell shit.. only can get the smell and cant eat them.. really hell shit... i love them but they hate me!! why??? stupid crab...

one day again i wont care about euu and eat eu die die!!! humph^^


this is before the crab serve!!


see how tasty the crab is^^


different flavor of crab
the first is butter cream sand
then the second is sweet and sour^^


this is what i ate when everyone is eating crab!!!
a bun and it sweet and sour sauce!!!


after crab served and its finished!!!
see..
my place is clean T.T


there's a cat came to disturb..
and it clime up to uncle Gobar place and scratch his ass..
i have no idea why the cat do that...
and my mom said there is something hidding there cause the cat do that^^


that our bill^^
RM958.35

hate crab~~~