secret

今天和又他碰面了
我心里原来还是会小鹿乱撞的说
原来我还是想念他的
每次见到他我都还是很有心动的感觉
记得以前我还和前男友在一起的时候我们还偷过情呢
但也是很久以前的是了
他是唯一一次也是仅只一次
不会再有列外了
以前我们差一点就在一起了
但由于中间突然很多事情的发生
我们错过了彼此一段时间
我们曾经还反目成仇呢
可是不知怎么的我们又好回了
现在的我们关系并不在那么简单了
可是
我总觉得现在不是开始的时候
但我们却决定了
所以
我必须学习如何明白, 谅解, 和独立于成长~~
我不懂我的决定是否对
至少我找到一个人让我去爱, 去珍惜
现在的他很忙碌
忙到连见面的时间都被霸占了
所以我才说现在不是时候
我不知道我会不会是他要的哪一位
可是我会努力的成为他的哪一位
就算我们可能是短暂的
但也值得留念~~
被他抱着的感觉很好, 很舒服, 很有安全感
和他打闹的我是开心的
躺在他胸膛的我是温暖的
靠着他的脚聊天是自然的
听着他的心跳而确定这我自己的存在
很开心有他
可是'
这些能维持多久?
我们的感觉是真是假?
我不会分
我没有安定的答案
我没有确定的肯定
我没有应有的信心
我~~
无力
可是
我还在努力着
我还在学习着
去爱他
去珍惜他
希望他会知道喝明白
我越来越迷失了
不懂自己想怎样
很混乱
我真的要他吗??
但我决定自己对他的感觉
可是
我的心任然有着某个人
对不起
我不是自私的
我只是要时间.....
但是...
能做到吗??????????
他能救我出来吗??
我很想霸占我心的那个人把我拉回来
去到他的身边
可是
那是不可能了
我们不会有开始也不会有结束
现在
我必须面对的是另一个他
一个重新进入我世界的他
会怎样?
谁知晓??
祝福我吧~~~

迷失的我

teddy bear day~~

today will be the day of making my own teddy bear^^
reached to my cousin sis's day care center around 2...
at first i tot will be going to their factory to make
but who know is they came to the day care center..
and so we made our teddy bear there...
and as day care center so they will be all kids~~
>cute kids<
this is how my teddy out look..
is very soft now haven stuff in cotton

this is the cotton beg and the cotton will be stuffing into my teddy later..

and there is a zip there for euu to stuff the cotton
when finished stuff the cotton..
then can walk to the worked
and they will weight and height ur teddy
then giving euu a heart to make a wish and put it into ut teddy as well

there is the heart of the bear...
and also the cert of ur bear...
*ignore the bear, is belong to my sis*

finished...???
then

zipped it on..
and its done^^

tata...
that my new teddy^^
name: Secret
gen: female!
and it very very cute^^

my nephew with his teddy
he cute......

a naughty baby girl...
she CUTE till the max man...
and my cousin sis like to bully her...

what they doing huh??
no idea~~
hahaha

after all things end then we went for our dinner...
the restaurant is just opposite of the daycare center...
and guess what..
i eat CRABS
and i itchy again immediately..

on my way back my mum drop my mii to Vivian 21st birthday party~~
and i drank alot there~~
hahahaha...
anyways.. picture is not with mii...
cox i din bring my cam along with mii...
and once again..
*happy 21st^^V*

sky trekking^^

reached nemo house around 8 with along xiaohui, baobei, xueyii and Dennis
then when everyone is arrived then we start our journey to have fun^^


**to be continue

baobei and spirit interview

today early in the morning i reached baobei house along with Karman to fetched her and spirit up..
they having an interview today
at first i tot that we'll be going the same hotel for intern
but who knows we now going separately
only me alone out of the 4 of us is taken by PanPacific
but is not end of my life also lar...
at least i can learn to be more independent~~
so baobei and spirit sent to Novotel somewhere behind Pavilion
at first karman and i just tot of dropped by them 2 and we can have a window shopping to Pavilion
but who know we followed them to the reception and until end of their interview
and we somehow get the chance to meet the GM of the hotel..
we actually dont know he is the GM but thou the brochure only we saw his pic there
then we went to the HR department
bla bla bla and bla bla bla
people who went to interview also taken/ accepted by the hotel^^
that was a greats news for both them
at least they no need to sent to other place anymore..
and they no need to worry anymore^^
after the interview then we went back to GK for lunch..
and it just 11 something..
after lunch then back to Baobei house..
and later at 4 having a replacement of Law with Kiap the class^^
cox Wed i'm going to make teddy bear^^
so not going to coll~~
hahaha....

tomorrow going to skytrekking^^

dream or real?

yesterday night i was having a very weird dream with mii
i dreamed of him
the situation is still the same
he is the one i loving, caring and caring
but i'm the one no body to him~
i woke with the tears come streaming down my face
what the story about made my tears drop?
i dont wish to remember it,
but it still seems fresh in my mind now..
just like a note to me
to worn me not to being so close with him anymore.
just to remind me we are nothing more then friend
just to push me away from the real life
just to clear up my mind that we are impossible
i have no idea why will have such a dream
he treated me as no body and so called stranger~
in my dream he having a girl he fancy with
and her name is Lxxx
he showing off in front of me everyday~~
he some more show me how lovely they are
some more showing off of their happiness...
and...
i totally lose to her..
she is really more pretty then i
she is really more princess then i
she is really more intelligent then i
she is really more prefect then i
she is really more suit him then i
she is really.....
i
so pointless
i
so useless
i
so hopeless
i
really need to just give up him like that
beside give up
i really have no idea what to do
i just falling my tears whenever facing back of him
i don't know how many tears i drop until my pillow sweat enough
i just know what is i really weak enough
i have no anything that can prove how much i love him~
i need him
and i want him.......

heart belongs

is december now...

im back again...
cant believe that ppl so in love blogging like mii can leave my blog death until today~~
i really have no idea why..
wont be posting what happen the passed week lar..
is pointless...
finally law assignment have already passed up...
and we manage to finished it in time^^
heemm.
my brain is really not in function.
i already forgotten what happen in the pass week!!
le mii think think,

monday*30.11.09*

we have our last few shoot for the law assignment..
we went coll study room early in the morning...
then this and that..
really hell tiring..
then also went carrefour to buy ingredient for pre-event use.
but today we not finished buying all...
so will go again by tuesday~

tuesday*1.12.09*

is 1st december...
time really do passes very very fast~~
after baking class we went to carrefour again to buy something for wednesday event~~
reach home then need to busy chop the na da de co co~~
wednesday have event..
must be a busy day^^

wednesday*02.12.09*

today is our pre-event day...
my group and i selling beverage, food and also Santa delivery^^
beverage we selling is something like mock tail...
is mixed sprite, extract juice and also some na da de co co i prepared yesterday
food we selling chocolate fondue~~~~
is very attractive to mii~~~
and lastly is our Santa delivery..
you can actually write down what you want to someone euu wanna sent to
then we will have euu to deliver to them
but just in college area lar..
firstly euu have to let us know where and who they will be~~
then that shouldn't be a problem for us in delivery^^
at about 11 we went to attend FnB class...
then event end we attent marketing tutorial and lecture as well
but so hell sleepy after the event~~
reach home finished bath then straight drop to bed dy~~

thursday*03.12.09*

today i supposingly attent FnB lecture...
but...
i overslept..
yesterday i still talk to loud and said "i will go for the lecture"
but end up...
overslept...
and i also do force kiap attend lec with mii...
then all us din go except bai..
she went coll herself..
but i still went coll to fetch ah bai up..
we going out to saisaki today for lunch^^
so unlucky
wehn i reach DK,
the lecturer ngam nagm drive out and he saw mii~~~
sweat!!
im here to say"sorry sir..."
then i also went to pre-event there to support other group^^
by the time we reached UOA is actually still early..
so we walked to Pavillion for a short walk
then back to UOA again..

our food^^
tok and bai took to much until nearly cant finish...
we also learned how to hide wastage^^
ssssshhhhhhhhhhhh..
then we back to Pavillion again...

no idea why i ask them to do this with mii~~

yitmun cut into half by the mirror^^

kiap, bai, fing, tok^^
*derest forever ya*

friday*01.12.09*

after lecture then went take LRT with along
xueyii, karman, zhenyun, baobei&the BF, kiap
but just only zhenyun, baibei, dennis, kiap and mii went to klcc
the 2 sapo back hometown^^
we first went PizzaHut to solve our hunger..
when we reached
there are so long Qfor waiting
but yet we still wait for it.
after meal then zhen yun back hometown
mii and kiap went to Pc fair saperately with baobei and dennis...
when reached the entrance,
i saw even and the BF
like that also can meet^^
then 4 us walk together..
i wanna buy camera actually..
but din buy yet
we just walked one round then leave...
nothing much to walk actually..
we just use one hour to finish the fair..
hahahhahahahhaha...

saturday*05.12.09*

after lunch then fetch grandpa back to Kepong
then join Dexter, Vinny, SoonHong and Jason for sing k
then i have to choice to dumpt my both sis to time square
the watch 2012~~
so after sing k then only i went to meet up with them~~
hahahahha
having a nice day with dex and the gang
and also nice to meet a new friend Jason..
dont have pic with mii now^^

that all for the one week

im back again^^

i've being lazy day by day now..
since last 2 week until today only just an update of my post
i have no idea why lar..
might be busy with assignment, interview so and so..
yeap,
i been interview to Pan Pacific @ KLIA with Eddie, BaoBei& Xueyii
on thursday i got knew that only i accepted by the hotel
beside them
YinNee, zhenyun&puimin also rejected by the hotel
now my intern period is go without them
i dont know how my life will be
just hope wont be worse.
and oh ya,
i'll be placed into the kitchen department..
although my first choice is Front Office lar..
and second is kitchen
FO is hard to fight for..
cox amount the interviewer..
i guessing there are more then half ppl first choice is FO
but in kitchen also not bad lar..
atleast still can learn somthing in the industry..
just please pray for mii that i wont gain any weight in my intern^^

just free from 2 assignment which is Marketing and Baking
i admit that in this 2 assignment i did nothing much
but..
nothing here to explain...
and sooner will be assignment again
Law
and also christmas event before the christmas

i'll gonna die in the 2 assesments yesterdayT.T
i do see thru F&B..
but nothing much i remember...
and also for Maintainance..
waiting to fail only..
the lecturer expecting long answer from everyone..
but i just gave him SHORT answer..
so..
there is not far away from FAIL...
just wish mi luck in this 2 papers lar..
perhaps that at least a just pass for mii..
hahahahahahahha...

will be try my best to not let my blog to die~~