哭了

对

本人今天又落泪了

我的泪

一文不值

所以就算再怎么懦弱的哭泣

也不会有任何随便一个人同情和可怜

就算我的泪流了再多

那个人也不会再回头看我一眼了

那为什么今天早上你要找我

你找了我今天又这样对我

你以为你以为

什么都是你以为

你这样对我我一点也不开心

我一点也不喜欢

不要以为你自己喜欢

你自己开心我就会和你一样

没有这样的事!!!!!!

为什么你要那么的霸道????

要把你的想法套我身上

我只想告诉你

现在的你让我更难过!!!!!!!!!!!

welcoming 2012

finally christmas ended

i started my christmas with work and ended my christmas with work too

this year christmas i just spend with my work and my bed

how am i going to celebrate if i am working night shift?

but

i dont care

am going to count down for 2011 end of December

one more week to go

2012

hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

am so wondering will it really be world end?

should i really spend all my saving before it really end?

*although not much $$ i heve*

just wanna use all my money to go around the world

go all those places that i really wish to go~~~~

even that i need to go around on my own~~

teehee

~~~~~should plan~~~~~

schedule is out

and i dont think so i can join my little jia to go singapore as we only have this tiny manning~~

so sad

as what i planned yesterday i already done the part

just thinking when should i really hand it up

am actually not many people know my final decision yet

and not telling anyone until i really hand it up

i will surely miss some people here but NOT the PLACE

*am not leaving yet, post my feeling only i really leaving=.=*

that the my very first plan on year 2012

then

i wanna plan for a trip with friends

*relaxing trip*

*beach side*

*food*

*shop*

*anything!!!!!!!!!!!!*

i just want a trip

and i want it to be fast!!!!

am just planning like the world really go end~~

hahaha

i dont care

as long as i am still alive

i want to do whatever i want

emmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

can i be a murderer too???

sometime i really do wish i can kill some people without any punishment!!!

but that is impossible

give me a book that can write the person name and cause them death!!!

am too over i know~~~

stop!!!!!!

emm

what now???

nothing much lar..

just planning to update my sweet little blog~~~

gonna start another busy day

a guest is waiting me at the other buiding~~

chao

talking rubbish

Liz_M

Merry Christmas & happy birthday my Jia Jia

hohoho...

merry christmas...

am so not happy cause everyone is out there count down for their christmas yet i need to work in stress

and its damn busy during christmas eve

saw lot peoples passing by the lobby

obvious party type outfit

am so envy

why am i need to work on christmas eve????

this is the second year my christmas eve working night shift since in join ritz

we also having christmas gift exchange this year

i bough the gift very last minutes

tee hee

and i got my very first christmas gift from my boss 

his gift is cost him $0

and mine for him is around RM130+

but i like it 

cause its a piano with blink blink*******

i like the gift which i brought for him

is really nice

hope to see him use it always

my mom, aunty, cousin and 2 sisters went Thailand to celebrate their christmas and i cant join cause i cant take leave in last minutes.

as well as my sister

she is now teaching tuition at her tuition center

this is really the FIRST time we cant join for family vacation!

OMG

sad T.T

just because i working night shift and there is no one home to accompany my silly sis

my dad scarified the trip just to stay home to make her comfort!!!! 

my daddy is just so pamper her!!!!!!!!!!!!

but if me i also worry that she stay home alone although she is already graduate from form 5

yet she still a child

and would like to say happy birthday to

My LITTLE JIA JIA

*sorry that i need to curi ur pic from ur fb, cause i dont have any in hand*

is her birthday today

-stay smart, pretty+ handsome ya

munz munz love euu.... muaaakz-

she is so enjoy with the gang out there

how i wish i could join them for the celebration of christmas and her birthday

they invited me to go for Singapore on the 30th 

i really wish i can join

but i think is really too late for me to apply leave

they always like to decide last minutes which i couldn't do anything

fine!

will still try

but i guessing is tiny cause my hotel here is running FULL

another busy weeks!!!!!

somehow

i though of giving resignation letter very soon

i had enough with all this shit!!!!

i just so hate my working life and environment

i just wish i no more working here

 leave here with a

 *smile*

can i?

i hope i can

after i get back my free life i guess i will join Little Jia

she will be my future boss

(@.@)

then i can follow her going here and there~~~~~~~

my mind cant stop imagine when i had those kind of freedom~~~~

looking forward for my real freedom

looking forward for my new life

Liz_M

"朋友, 你还好吗?"

每一个人都有自己的容忍和坚持的时候

基于能够忍耐和坚持多久

就得看个人了

我想一直喜欢着我的那个人

他经已不再坚持了

他最后选择的是放弃

我真的不知道他到底有多喜欢我

也不懂他是否真喜欢

因为那人从未对我表白过

哈哈哈哈哈哈

我庆幸他能做出一个这样的决定

至少他很勇敢的做出了最后的决定

他不再想要让自己辛苦

他想要找到真正属于他自己的幸福

我也很诚心的祝福他

希望他真的能找到属于他自己真正的幸福

只能说你的好我不配要

也没有资格

你条件真的很好

但我真的不想失去一位能真正让我谈心的好朋友

很多人都说这是一个借口

可是

这段友情真的是我需要的

我只是希望你不要因而逃避我

我最不喜欢就是像这种明明就是朋友却不跟你说上一句话

如果这是你觉得你开心的

我会成全

一直到你觉得你能和我真正的说话为此

我不过是希望我自己真的想多

也好想问候你一句

"朋友, 你还好吗?"

Liz_M

加油

今天他本来打算带我去看戏的

我从昨天开心到今天

很可惜

我们都忘了今天是saturday

当我们去到戏院的时候几乎所有的戏都selling fast, or sold out

当时的心情真的是跌进谷底咧

可是

我们能怎么样呢???

不能勉强

之后我们原本打算就这样回家的

因为

我真的不想继续在那里浪费大家的时间

加上我也不想要让他看到我失望伤心的表情

“你看起来好失望的样子哦”

最后还是被他发现了

对

我的表情真的很明显

那我真的掩饰不了

对不起

但这一次的他尝试着逗我

我笑了

有那么一秒我打从内心笑了出来

因为真的很久很久他没有这样做了

但我内心的失望掩盖了开心

在他面前我还是带着没有灵魂的微笑

这些他都看在眼里

可是他真的有想尽他所有的办法了

其实我也真的不想让他看到我这个样子

只不过

我不想掩饰

最后我们去到wangsa的carefour吃Mc. Donald

吃完后我们逛了两逛就回家了

今天的他抱得我很紧

是舍不得呢还是可怜

我真的分不清

他一转身我的泪已经不再受我的控制了

除了哭

我也只能哭了

我觉得现在我们就算好回了

我也感觉很空

一点确实感我都没有

失魂的开车

之后就回家

回到家朋友不断叫我出去喝茶 

可能真的身心都累了

所以我想尽借口推

最后还是被melissa叫出来了

我们又到咖啡馆喝茶

最后sansan也来join 我们

我们聊了很多很多

我们为大家加油打气

聊了很多心事

我

还是放不下

但我会努力

我真的会

baby说明天一起吃lunch哦

成事不成，

不知道~

阿曼加油

Liz_M