心痛

今晚我又流泪了

昨天回家以前他答应了我一些事情

但是今天他没做到

我本来真的不想抱太大的期望的

但由于我选择了相信

现在流再多的泪也没有用了

同样地事情

以前我什么也不需要说

他什么都做到足

现在握就算说了

也都只是废话

我很想要学会放弃

可是我却没有放弃的勇气

他总是说要我给他时间

那会是谁来给我时间丫

我的时间难道就不是宝贵的吗?

这真的不是你的错

是我自己明明知道没有结果的我还是选择去爱

我从没想过我会陷入这样的爱情

原来

甜蜜与幸福中

是会换来很痛的痛苦

自从那件是以后

我觉得你的心不是走向我了

我能很清晰的感觉到

但我还是欺骗着自己

说你只是在做戏给她看罢了

但现在

我是看你做戏的人吗?

她说的

你都在听

那

我说的呢??

你要我相信你

我相信了

但换来的是什么???

难道

一次次的原谅换来的是一次次的受伤吗???

我到底还能怎样做?

我真的累了

..........

今天是我们的9月又10天的

我们原来在一起那么久了

虽然说很长又不是很长

但

短也不是很短哦

每天见面的我们

9个月里的感情有多深???!!!

可想而知丫

但最近我发现

几乎每天都同shift

每天一起吃饭

一起约会

聊天

看电影

去吃喝玩乐

亲亲和抱抱

等等等等

这些都是几乎每一天都在做的事捏

每一天都觉得自己很幸福很开心

虽然偶尔我们都会闹点小脾气丫什么的

但回家以前我们一定会好回的

因为他一定会逗我笑

这是他一定会做的

但不知从几时开始

我发现我们渐渐走远了

现在有好像越来越远了

他好像不再像以前那样的疼我了

或许是我自己多心

或许是我自己多疑

还是我自己太过于贪心的要他更多的爱

我希望是如此而已

现在他说的和做的都不一样了

有种感觉他正在每一天的向我退后一步

但后退了

就能代表什么都没有发生过吗???

别想得太简单

不要只是为了你自己

也得想想我丫 

我不奢望你再为我向前一步

但真的不希望你不停的倒退

这样只会让我看着你时心里感觉很刺痛

真的会很痛

这样一点感觉也不好

我只想回到前几个月

在我把你送我的戒指弄不见以前

我们是多么的甜与蜜

一切都还能从来吗???

能吗???

别再向后退了

我宁愿你就这样的转身离开也不愿看着你渐渐变小

泪水

总是流不尽的

每个夜晚入睡以前必定的事 

Liz_ munZ

today night shift so happy

been working night shift so many days alone

finally a night Melissa with me

and DM is Sharon

i have no idea why the stupid aircon is switch off tonight

the whole lobby is just like Sauna

so the hell HOT!!!

the whole night we just forwarded the line to back office

and 3 of us stay behind and do our things

and ofcox chit chat

tonight got so many things to eat

first i ate dinner with my family before i came to work

then Melissa bought some sandwiches for me and Sharon

we wanted to order food from room service 

but tonight cannot cause big boss ada~~

then took some cake from our lobby lounge

nice????

the middle left

i finished by myself

very nice

then we yet still continue do our things

but i admit i only facebook-ing at back

cause i already done my things~

then in a sudden 3of us planned to order Mc.Donald cause Melissa said wanna drink Mc.Donald's rebina!!!!

lame right?

so we ordered nuggets , frenchfried and drinks

3 of us share

lucky today Mc.Donald enough rider to sent us Mc.Donald

still remember last week how i fight with Mc.Donald

still cant forget that night!!!!!!

not to mention now maybe next time~

we also called Colby to chat for a little while

he is coming back soon

^^

finally is 7 in the morning

is time for me to do my closing

meet my man for a while

and sleep maybe*.*

then

back home~~~

cut my fringe d^^

Liz_lovE

happy night shift^^

13.09.11

那只笨蛋竟然和我迟到

但迟到好过没到嘛是不???

at least我还有些时间能和他约约会

之后我在doom睡觉休息

因为实在是太累了

不想回家路上出意外

安全起见都是睡一睡先比较好嘛

这几天都是这样

之后大概1点多等到刚好他break我起床

我们就去starhill吃午餐

我们竟然还可以因为超级无聊的事吵架

知道我们到底在吵什么吗????

就是那所谓的fruit ninja game!!!!!!

很无聊有没有????!!!!!!!

*我接受吾到咯*

因为他说他拿很高分

我也不要认输丫!!!!!!

hahahahahahahahahaha

整个星期都有set lunch咯

今天刚好是他爱吃的chicken rice

look delicious right?

one set!

they serve with springroll, vege soup, steam chicken rice and ice lemon tea as it drink

i dont know how i made this

it just simply

and i find it look like a flower

nice?

act stupid!!!!

im noob @.@

us

 us

and us again ^^

then lastly

here come our desert!!!!

my <3 p="">

chocolate ice cream!!!

yummy yummy

with peanuts +chocolate rice

nice

yesterday's got cherry geh lor~~

today cherry habis

sad~

after our brunch 

then he back to work

and i back home

sleeping time~~~

Liz_lovE

should i continue?

im really hell blank now

lot of thing happened in a sudden and i dont know how to respond at all

i dont know what should i do now

everyone is telling me

is time for me to give up

cause no point to continue any more

but

i just can say is really not that easy to do

if you really love someone

you will never ever let he or she just go like that

this few days we do meet and chat bout this

end up i have nothing for our conclusion

so now i also dont know what can i do

what guess what?!!

we still plan for our 10th months and even 1 year

we are just so happy when discuss bout it

yet my hear fest so pain

i dont know that will our 10th months to be arrive

i hope everything just go fine~~

i just want like that

nothing much

baby

i really need ur help

i really dont know what and how to do

i dont know how to face everything came in a sudden

i know eu in the same situation as me

but

i really need your support

need ur idea

need ur guide

and not just choose to be silent 

not everything will be ok just being silent

i know this is ur style

but

not everything

and know what

i starting to lose confidence myself to euu

i dont know what am i mean to euu now

im blank

im really really very blank

pls

pls guide me pls

i want you

euu want me

ya

but 

HOW?