learning and wondering...

may be now is the time for me to let go...
your hand...
your heart...
your breath...
your warmth...
your smile...
your joke...
your everything...
is not belongs to me...

i knew that in the very first...
but...
how i wish...
just one minute...
or even one second...
i can hold your hand...
i can hug you up...
i can kiss your lips...
i can say i love you...
i can look at you...
everything i wish too...
but i know everything now is already too late...
what should i do now is give up...
yes...
learn to give up...
learn to forget....
learn to be strong...
and of cause learn to be smile all the while...
i know i can do it...
i believe in myself...
actually i just wish i be that brave....
then that i can tell you i love you...
but unfortunately,
i'm NOT!!!
i don't know what will you respond after that...
i choose to hide everything from you...
just being whatever we is now...
pure...
just that pure and nothing else....
i wonder when is the right time...
i wonder when will you believe me...
i wonder when.....

is a brave to fall for you...
munZ

student exchange day!!!

yea, Japaneses students came our college today... only me and Eddie taking a group of 6 people... but Janice more worst... her group member don't know at where... disappear... pity her lo... teehee... mine also not seems that good... i can't communicate with them... iiissshhhh.... only keep on "so re wa bla bla bla des" then, "tosokan", "toire", "sokudo"then... some more what? no more.... hahaha.... feel so sorry lo... this is the second semester i study for Japanese... yet still can't get to communicate with them... haiz... no comment with it lorr... so end up we just communicate in English... hopefully they understand what i said larr... haha... just because of hard to communicate... we end up just like didn't talk much with them... i think they sure felt so boring there host is us... just felt so sorry to them too... haha... after that then rush to Karman house and bath cox wanna go for interview later... meet up with he gang at bus stop at 2 and lucky we didn't late for it since is abit jam there... after the interview done we went sg.wang for a walk... then also sing fews song there... and today we got a follower.... wakakaka... which is Lum Kar Man... teehee... she not in my group but she followed us to interview... just to replace some one... haha..

made a final decision^^,
munZ

cooking day...

yea... Tuesday again... yea... happy again... wakakaka... today we prepared fish again... beside that... we also cooked Spinach... really headache with chef Brain luu... he always left my group behind... my group forever the last he will consider... T.T... so our group forever the last only done all our things... we actually planned to play basketball after kitchen... and also dinner after basketball... but end up didn't play... i also don't know who's fault... we reached basketball court and stared to call up nemo and ah mo... but no one answer the phone.. fine... in the end we leave... me and Karman went Bao Bei place to play "mao mao"... wa... it change her fur color already lorr... seems more gray now.. haha... then end up chit chat at Bao Bei's room.. we 3 suddenly talk about own "history"... sound funny... ya.. we talk alots of different of our pass... and yes... she know lots of things that other don't know... i actually not wish or willing to tell out... but in the end....... ..... ..... ... *sweat enough* but of cause she not know everything just because i still keeping... i just wish that was my own memories and not to share with other...


i'm actually also blur enough with what i tell them... and also don't know what to do since the problems appears or started... we discuss and giving suggestion to each other... felt so lovely... hope that she will keep our secret... teehee... i know she will... this is what really can't let other know... because i don't wish too...... i actually always asking myself... what is those stupid weird feels that always appears when he is there... i really tried to cover myself very hard... i wish to success all the time... but it doesn't... i got no other way do let things be fine... just hoping everything maintain... although i knew he seems further away from me... at least i still keeping that feels with him and me in the very first we started... although it just a short period... but is already enough for me... but somethings that i really wish to tell you that is "i really didn't play with our relation in the very first..." i know you wont believe it... but i just wants to tell you... and i know you wont listen... i even knew that everything is too late to be mention or explain... misunderstand is misunderstand...
my only sorrow...

everything is too late???!!!
munZ

周杰伦 － 说好的幸福呢

你的回话凌乱著
在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱著歌
假装没事了

时间过了 走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了 倦了 我哭了
一开始的不快乐
你用卡片手写著
有些爱只给到这 真的痛了

怎么了 你累了 说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数著你再不捨
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得

你不等了 说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪乾了 放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转著
要怎么停呢

你的回话凌乱著
在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱著歌
假装没事了

时间过了 走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了 倦了 我哭了
一开始的不快乐
你用卡片手写著
有些爱只给到这 真的痛了

怎么了 你累了 说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数著你再不捨
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得

你不懂了 说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪乾了 放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转著
要怎么停呢

怎么了 你累了
说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了
爱淡了 梦远了
我都还记得

你不懂了 说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪乾了 放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转著
要怎么停呢
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just received this song from Karman yesterday... can't believe that i cried for this song... yesterday is the first time i finished the whole song... ya... is the first time... in the pass i just listen to the radio and every time also just halfway listen it... i dont know why... so finally i get the full song... then the whole day i just listen to this song and keep on repeat and repeat... my tears... falling and falling... cant control... iiissshhh... how long i didn't cry for a song?? but then how come i will cried for this??? i wondering... haha... i like the lyrics... for me is touching... this song making me recall my memories... and the now him.. i think my heart is with him... but i dont dare to admit it... he seems like getting further and further away from me... i hate the feelings that he said whatever that hurt me... i dont know that with his purpose or he didn't mean it... but... is really hurting me... i wish to get back the very first feelings that belongs to us.. the me and you... is this possible? will the feels coming back? will you coming back too??? i'm now acting to be just friend... very pure friend... with not crossing both line... this is what you set me in the pass... lots of things that i now really dont dare to do... not like in the pass... i will just go for it whenever i want...now, i fear to lose... i affair that you will leave me alone here... i dont want... i just want you stay by my side... even we are just friend... I'm satisfied with it...

hey... "i think i love you"... how i wish just one day i dare to shout out loud and let you know... but i wonder when is the day...

heart???
munZ

re-do???

damn shit okies??? haiz... tot that after pass up the assignment then everything fine even i know i will get no mark for it or mayb low mark lar... but i okay with it... and also got no comment with it too... but suddenly the lecture said that wanna return the assignment and want us to do again... hello... ms.Gan... you expecting my group member will re-do for you?? is impossible... the one who doing is only me... what you what me to change and re-do for you??? i got no any idea... i had already give out what i want to my group member... but that is what they gave me and wanna pass up... so... what should i do is just pass up to you what they pass to me... that all... i had already done my part with my full effort.... and one more... i NOT copy and paste from the net.... don't said that everyone is copy and paste... if you really with that my part is also copy and paste so then i will do so... is a very easy job... then i no need to think to change every word that from the net... lucky that yesterday who you meet is not me... if not... i think i will just start on my fire in front of you... what i just want to said is i cant corporate with this kind of member... you... you.... i dont want to mention out your name... but i know that sure i talking about you.... dont put on my fire any more... hey... this is a group work.. can please show me what is team work???/ did i ask from you much??? did i???? everything i already separate each by each... who need do wish is chosen by you guys own choice... to be fair i already mix every 2 in 1... i even write down the website for each every of you... but in the end... what i get???? just 4 or 5 pages???? only copy and paste???? what the hell is going on??? if you all dont wish to do.. just tell... i can just tel the lecture that you all not wish to do any assignment... so... no point wasting ur time for me... 5 pages.... omg... 2 perayaan you just manage to get 4 short page and 1 pic... hello... come on lar... dont make my mark down okay??!!!! i even help you find more... but yet still you giving me rubbish... expecting i will help you change or do it for you..??? excuse me... NOWAY i will.... that's me... ya... i'm such a bad member that with you all.... if i'm bad... then what about you guys???? GOOD????!!!! damn it okay... and another... why you guys can do very good in OWN assignment and also the presentation???? you... that day i saw ur presentation for the english... wtf... you can do that good for your own... but come to group assignment.,.. what you pass me???? SHIT.... yes... totally SHIT..... no more joining such member again in future assignment... is horrible okay!!!! damn it.............

cooking day~~~

yeah.. whenever comes to Tuesday... i will very excited... because every lesson we will learn something new and also more and more different... today... we learn to cooked fish and chip... i actually wait a long long time to learn this... actually we already heard this one week before... who know last week we cook different things.. but i still ok with it... beside that, i also learned to make maselow... then the other group prepared sauces, french fried, spaghetti, and also bread... i think that all, if i not forgotten... chef device things that we need to do to each of the group... then all busy doing this and that... no one got free time to entertain me... wakakaka... okies... i didn't do much disturbing.. just because everyone is busying.. including me... if not... *imagining*wakakakaka... finally... all done.. ofcox also our fish in the very last... then chef show us how to do some decoration with each every dishes... after that... our turn to do so.. we also get to eat the chicken that we help to prepare!!!!! wakakak... then finally... itarakimasu.... *いたらきます* and ofcox... oishii*おいしい*wakakaka.... then today our class finish before 6... first time that early.. teehee...


chef is demo-ing...


my group's fish...
and also the maselow!!!


the salad...


the spaghetti...


the bread...


mine!!!

enjoy cooking...
munZ^^

finally~~~

finally BM assignment had passed up today... done it in the very last minutes... the now me was just like breathe a sigh of relief... firstly is just because of my BM is really really suck... i admit it... shame to be as a Malaysian... wakakaka... today reach Karman place at around 10... because i need her check out on my assignment and also my kesimpulan... then 11 something we done everything and ready to print and also wanted to take our breakfast after printing all the stuff... but who knows... after printing we already late for the class.. so then we 'da bao' to class... okies.. for sure... we already late for class for about half an hour... yet we still walk in like 'whatever'... wakakaka... then the other group are presenting in front... just wanna said sorry that interrupt by us... btw... euu guys still doing the good presentation lar.. no worry... wakakaka... but tell you all what?? munZ group wil be the best.. wakakakakakaka... high-ing again.... iiiissshhhh..... lots of other late for their presentation today.. hopefully their mark will not getting low because of this... *blessing*... then end up.. we ate at class and also in front of the lecturer... *naughty us* wakakaka... i don't wish to do so... but i serious hungry... so.. just forgive mii lar... wakakaka....

a short finally!!!
munZ

continue lo....

after class we the gang, Karman, Xiao Hui, Eddie and me went Puchong to proceed our plan for the Kitchen's assignment... we went to do some survey and also tried their food... too bad is not

orthodox, their are not all based on Taiwanese food... haiz... after that, we all went Xiao Hui house.. for what??? to PLAY lo... wakakaka....


acting hardworking again....


sleeping again...^^


2 piggy.... they really sleep and not acting...
wakakaka....


he is doing his power point and also busy chatting msn..
i also busy looking...
wakaka...


lure-ing him to take pic...


omg... still got no any respond??!!!
impossible man...
but....
slowly here come....


the hand itchy already...
then...


guess what???
i successful!!!!!
wakakakakakaka....


him...


mii^^,
then...


we both!!!
where is the other 2??
sleeping....
wakakakaka....

another happy day^^,
munZ

iiissshhhh!!!!!

went coll for account examination.. emm... not that hard actually... but for the PIG, no comment... wakakaka... after that, PIG, Karman, Xue Yii, Hui Wen, rainbow and me, the gang went canteen to have their breakfast cox later at 10 we got a BM replacement class... i actually dont wish to attend... but then in the end also i join the big gang in but tell you what, we DIDN'T study... wanna complain here too... this is what happened when we at canteen 2... Karman brough the red bean + mango "pao pao bing" ok.. i was actually warning her not to eat ice that early cox is just 9 something we at canteen 2.. so then she didn't listen and stil she brought it.. so then i tried on the red bean... then i just said "i WANT it".. but my beg and money was left behind in the car.. so i tried to borrow money from each every of them... but they don't want to borrow me because of KARMAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so then finally i saw small darling.. i tot that he will buy me that, but, ya.. in the end he brough me something which is bread that not what i wanted... then all them force me to finish the bread only i can get my red bean... okay, in the end i finished... thne i waiting for my "pao pao bing"... suddenly small darling back to me and told me that the taste i was was sold out... very surpricingly, i cried... but not that serious i cried larr... wakzakakakaka... then in the end also Karman brought me what i want... wakakakaka.. happy luu.... hate them lo.... all treat me like that... even the PIG... all bully me today... dont know what happen... what i did that make you guys treat mii like that worr???? haiz.... then went bm class and... ... .... .... ... . ..... .... ..........

to be continue....
munZ^^,

blurr enough....

...hopping i not falls for you...
...we are different from others...
...missing you all the while...

presentation & skip class day...

as i had mention on the previous post that i will have my presentation today.. this is the worst ever presentation i done... i don't know what wrong with me... i just know that i very nervous when standing in front of the class and my mind was blank... i forget every note that i read through... is already pass... just forget about it... i know that my mark for this presentation will definitely LOW... i got no any idea with it... just hope to do well in every next presentation... iiisssshhhh...

today went Karman's place at about 9 something cox wake by Karman's msg at about 8 in the morning... so after washed up then straight went her house... went for breakfast at Maggie's shop, omg.. i will gain lots of weight if every time going there... the food sell there really delicious enough... today me ordered "chao kuey theo" and Karman prawn mee.... we also ordered dumbing as our side dish... tell you what.. damn full enough... our stomach nearly get burst!!! then went Jusco for buy Shushi for later Karman's presentation... i'm the first who present today... omg... i really really damn in nervous.. bust getting prepared, this and that... but after i stand in front of everyone... omg... i forget everything that i read... i was just like bla bla bla whatever i want!!! omg... can't believe that i can be that worst... nervous is killing me all the while... why i will be the first? haiz... forget about it now... although that i know i will get LOW mark... i dowan to care about it any more.. SAD enough.... our class start 12 today... the Pig still haven be in class while is already 12.38 and i already over my presentation.. so then i message him and get a -sweat- reply from him... "what haven come yet? today not 2 meh? shit lo... how?" sweat enough right... k then, since i wanna go fill my petro then i fetch him up as well... walked a long long distance from block M to Karman house to get the car just because today got no parking space.. i dont know why.. finally we both reach coll at 1 something... sorry for missed up lots of you guys presentation.. i not mean too... haha... after English class i actually got Japanese class to attend.. but i skip... not ONLY me.. Maggie, Janice, Ghost, Fen, Luan, and a French student Lum Kar Man.. we went Jusco again to walk around and buy something.. aiyor... why you guys brought me to Jusco? teaching me ponteng? haiz.. sad lar wei.. wakakaka.. lame me again... after a short walk we back to coll to attend Amanda's lecture at 4... we also went Secret to enjoy our cake before bact to coll... wakaka...raining day again... I HATE TRAFFIC JAM okay???!!! haiz....


Hello Kitty!!!


Mr. Bean's bear...


Karman with the 3 babies bear...


munZ & the PIG^^,
my hair looked short here...
like it...


we... the formal gang...
wait... who is the one on the second left???
he not in formal...


my "ah mui"
wakakaka....


yipii.. the us...


of of the LAME partner..
Karman....


at toilet...
ya..
we just likes to take pic every where....


hhheeemmmm....


our ice - cream....


my cake..
chocolate banana...


the end^^,

swimming day...

today we the gang went swimming... haha... the Pig is actually force by me, cox he don't wish to swim today cox too tired... but yet still he came...*sorry...* today damn tired lo... swim wall to wall lots time... the Pig and Karman lar... *euu guys is robot orhx???* haiz.. i really half death inside the pool... feelings a bit pengsan too... wakakaka.... after our swimming, then we went to eat Mc.D at MU... we actually don't know what to eat... then i just simply suggest that "how about Mc.D?" then the gang looked at me and said "we want to slim down still Mc.D? ok... lets go..." lame enough... i think Eddie is the one who really wanna kill us... cox we the 3 who said wanna slim down yet still we bring him go eat Mc.D... aiyor.. once awhile... never mind lar.. wakakaka....


Mc.D


yummy.....


so delicious horr???


i like it.... wakakaka


karman is finish her burger...


the Pig...
where is Xiao Hui?
she is lost...
she not allow me to take her's pic...


us..
Xiao Hui lost....


who that?
wth she trying to do???


she thought that no one recognize her...
she is Karman.....


ghost behind her...
oopppsss...
i mean HIM...


boo~~~


this is what called "LONELY MAN"

i think i going to be indian soon...
munZ^^,

cooking day!!!

cooking day again... sound like in bad mood and not like cooking horr?? NO... i love cooking... wakaka... so i like every Tuesday as well... today we cooked a meal... a simple meal.. a simple spaghetti as well.. my group today very free... there got 4 things need to prepare and there is 5 groups of us... so each group prepare one... ours job share half with Xiao Hui's group... we prepared the spaghetti and they prepared the sauces... then the other group prepared chicken, potato, and veges... bla bla here, and bla bla there... busy body in each every group just because my group damn free... finally all done... happy... cox can eat!!! hahaha.... after that some of us stay back for helping prepared those ingredient needed for tomorrow... ok... i didn't touch the chicken again... i admit that i scare of it because of the smell... i promise i will train myself to touch the chicken... ok? just give me some times.... i know i can do it.... *hopefully* then i only help to chopped the herbs and nothing other then that.. wakaka.. wow, Joy Joy is doing the most difficult part which is cut a 'pocket' in the chicken breast.... it is not easy to do so... there is 35 pieces of them.... *pity euu lo..nvm, euu should be proud.. cox chef said he believe on euu.. wakakakaka* after everything finish... Pig, Karman and me went genting klang for dinner...


see... every one is busy!!!


i'm really chopping the chicken...
NOT acting!!!


group 1 is preparing the chicken...


they prepare the potato..
damn nice...


they look so free...
just like my group...


chopping....


see how the chef looked....


fuyoh... so serious orhx...
who is this???


choosing tomatoes...


spaghetti...


busy prepare....


chef is chopping the chicken...
looked so handsome horr???


our done!!!
the bone is belongs to Joyce!!!


wa... see how serious is Joy...

that all for today.... too many pic too choose for upload... and ofcox not all here...

enjoy cooking...
munZ^^,