i not the one you finding...

hey... thanks for always supporting me in every ways... i know i might be abit too selfish... but i admit it... i can't say that you not enough perfect! is that i not suit to you... i used to always remind you since that day we meet... i also admit that last time i got those crazy feels with you... but now those feel are already all gone... don't ask me why... just the feeling of mine!!! i don't know how many times that i already mention NO to you yet still forever you won't listen to me... you just do whatever you want... continue making me in suffer but you don't know... still remember who is Kin and Edwin right? i told you before just because the 2 of them i whom fall so easily any more now... sorry... the time for us not match... i just can only say SORRY to you.. please just forgive me... we are FOREVER FRIEND!!!!! i know what i said or mention is all bullshit, meaningless and useless.. but... i won't let the WRONG goes WRONG again... i have to make everything balance... i just hoping everyone is being friends using the real heart... and this time is not because the mr.Exxxx ... we are really just friend... or maybe more closer then friend... and i admit that what Jason told you is all trues!!! but i already trying my very BEST to maintain everything right in order... i hope you will understand with everything i said... feelings all my unnecessary feels... i know it might not fair to you... but everyone know that feels is stupid crazy things... so sorry that the crazy stupid feels had lost from you since that days what had happened!!! so... i hope that our relation won't change.. and i also promise i won't hide aways from you anymore... i will keep my promise to you and i hope you will do so.. thanks alots!!! wishing all the best to you... ... i really NOT the one you finding...