Tuesday, January 19, 2010

what to title?

just now read a post by karman saying that she wanna be courage to face the days gonna without us..
i cant believe that her post made mii fall my tears..
i wanna say hate her..
cause she made mii cried~~
she made mii remind that im lonely too soon...
she remind mii that i gonna face the same problem with them soon
she remind mii that everything gonna back to along soon..
cant imagine that time really passed that fast
it cant be catch but to waste~~
i admit that i wasted lot of times on nonsense things~
but those nonsense stuff are all my treasure~~
i cant believe that this is the last semester facing all my friends
i really cant imagine that how will i be after without them
in the pass while is just semester break i already start missing everyone like no one business..
now..
things change
after the holiday will not gonna see them anymore..
at first thought of study together with baobei and karman
but in the end i required change college to further my degree
so...
am i too fake to say missing them now???
what will i be after this exam?
what will my friend all be after the exam..
to those who can intern together..
it really make mii jealous.
because there is still time for euu all to stick together..
but for mii??
no one...
no one with mii~~
i'll be intern with friend that not that close...
will i cry?
now already i cried..
what about when everyone now around mii???
to my friend who know mii well...
you all know that im a person that so not independent right?
always make euu all worry bout mii
always bring troubles to euu all
always this and that
always doing nonsense things
always talk rubbish..
but what??
at lease we share lots of things together...
we fight,
we laugh,
we talk,
we share,
we play,
we hang out,
we doing assignment
we quarrel,
we having outing
we sing k together
we watch movie together
we having party together
we having bbq together
we ~~~
that really uncountable
there is really all consider treasure to mii
i know that one day still we will separate
but i just dont wish time come that fast
we meet each other from stranger, to friend, to best friend and even close as family~
and now suddenly
we going saparetely~~
i dowan that
i really dowan time passed so fast

karman, spirit, baobei,
euu 3.. recently we really spent lot time with each other.. especially spirit.. so happy that can know 3 of euu.. 3 jokers.. always made laught... we always share funny things, i always share my tears and euu all din mind it before...
to spirit--xueyii
im sorry that i quarrel with euu before... i really dont mean it.. hahaha... i know we are nothing now... but i still mind that we quarrel before... i miss euu leh..

eddie.
hahahaha.. euu arr?? what to say bout euu arr?? i dono leh.. wanna angry euu or laugh leh?? both?? hahaha... share again when we talk secret k?? ahaha

guangfa's family--xiaohui, carol, fangyii, joyce, joy, and peggie~~~
although i admit that i not that close with euu all.. but except for xiao hui lar.. hahaha.. but we still do share lot of things right??? i miss carol's smile, joke*punch ur mother potatoes*^^ stil remember this leh.. hahaha.. lots to say~~

laoba, laoma, saima~~

fern, yinmei, lyn, liluan~~

control please..
control my tears please~~`
all also because of karman lor..
made mii fall my tears~~
and do remind mii i gonna leave eu all..
haiz..........
what lar~~

i dowan time pass so fast~~~~~

Sunday, January 17, 2010

一段歌~

今天的他突然对我清唱了一段歌曲
虽然什么都不是
但却温暖了我的小心房 <3
原本气呼呼的我却被他冻了一冻
而且
那曲子还是他自己想的
贝比,
比比不是说你的歌声难听
而是你降了我的温 啦...
我决定了
我不会再让那小罗罗打扰我的世界了
既然和贝比是快乐的
为什么自己不好好的继续经营下去了
既然他也已经有了自己即将要有的幸福
我现在还在执着着什么?
我还放不下的是什么??

我承认我现在还是一样笨到还爱着他
也同时的对身边的他造成了伤害
可是
他还是不愿打退堂鼓
我很感动有人愿意为我付出
很感动有人愿意这样爱我
可是
我却不停的打击他
逼他退后
可是他却坚强得很
比我想象的坚强
虽然说了愿意放下没有结局的他
可是
心痛是为什么??
不舍又是为了什么???

很抱歉我令身边的朋友担心了
很抱歉我不能把贝比公开
毕竟我们有着各自的秘密
可是如果是时候了
你们就会知道他是谁了
哈哈哈哈哈啊

special to baby 283,
sorry to made eu so worry bout mii..
sorry to made euu suffer both side..
i know..
euu want slap mii can arr..
come lor..
i let euu slap..
but.
dont so hard k??
pain pain~~~
i just scare after the slap i also can wake~~
oppsy sorry..
hahaha..
i will try my best to be tough k???
love you..
muaaaakz.........

thx 贝比 for ur love..

im here again

im not lazy recently...
i just hell busy being maid, study for exam
this and that..
i really..
it really..
i dont know how to say out how tired am i!!
monday busy revision for marketing on tuesday
lucky that marketing i still can do..
but just scare that so confidence then end up fail..
so praying very hard for not that bad luck to mii~~~
hahahahahahaha
then another day for maintenance..
i really need to take a special thankz to zhen yun
the one who taught mii maintenance in the middle of the night..
if not..
i wont be able to know anything bout maintenance
really..
from her..
i know all the calculation and able to use when exam
cause of her..
i know what need to study and what not..
but too bad..
i just can do for those calculation part and not theory part...
theory part really wait die.
i really have no idea why whatever i studied it cant go in to my brain
i thinking that izzit i too tired or what..
i really cant control myself and the brain~~
hahahahahaha...
but
at least i know that i can pass for the paper..
actually this semester i just aim all pass..
that already i very happy with it..
i just want to graduate intime~~
bless mii please..
now now now..
still have 4 more paper to go...
just
try to do my best....
but today i totally have no mood to study at all..
yesterday also..
hahahaha...
heeemmm.....
that all lar..
lazy do blog dy..

oh ya..
i maybe changing blog later some times..
cause feeling dowan use this blogspot dy~~
but..
still not pretty confirm with it..
hahaa...

Saturday, January 16, 2010

meeting frenz

went out to have lunch with Ling at station one, pandan indah
obviously i have such a long time din go to that area..
still remember that last time when i still secondary time
i use to sneak out in the middle of the night with the frens and bf
then mostly will went that area for yamcha, chatchat, clubbing and so on..
stop~~
back to topic..
hahahaha...
i really dont know how long i din meet with ling dy~
today ngam ngam so free..
then sent a msg to her and invite her for lunch
she also cant out that long cause working..
in the passed time..
we r the best ponteng kaki~~
oppsy.
dok bao myself tim...
pretend that euu dont know..
hahhaa..
until i finished my form 5..
then we start to less contact and so....
but we still sweet sweet freinds...
our friendship never change k??
hahahaha...
after the lunch and chit chat with her at there
then i back homw wait for kevin the giant
sorry to mentioned that he is a giant..
just because he really tall and strong~~
then we went pandan indah area as well..
one day went the same place for 2 time~~
sien~~
hahahaha...
we chatted lot..
ok lar..
he also a long lost friend lar..
suddenly called to meet up..
we actually planed for so many times to yamcha..
but until today only we got the change to meet~~
really making mii faint..
my birthday they event din attend..
really cant forgive lor..
but..
im not that kind of small gas..
wakakaka...
at least we still manage to meet up today..
and so we planed to meet this coming week again and with the EX
hahahaha....
when?
not sure yet
have to wait everyone free..
i still on exam~~
hahaha..
wish mii luck then^^

actually got pic with mii..
but lazy to post..
forgive my laziness....

miss euu all lar my friends~~~

Monday, January 11, 2010

exam

exam is really driving mii mad all the while..
this semester i taking 6 subjects..
asking which subjects that i confidence with?
i only can give you and answer as "NO~"
oppsy..
is not that i not hardworking enough..
is that i stupid enough..
wasting all my time to missing and thinking someone..
i dont know why..
studying whatever sub...
his name will automatically appear in my mind..
how many times i shout it out "help"
but..
nothing work~~
today went library study with karman, baobei, nemo and jason
actually jason request mii to teach him account..
but the while he came
he said he wanna give up bad dept..
then i was just like no respond..
haha
but then end up he borrow notes from baobei..
she i also dono what he actually want..
then i making my own notes for marketing..
sides..
i also study few slide of law..
hahahahahahhaahha...
pity mii..
know nothing..
am i really that stupid huh??
y study for so long also still can say i know nothing har??
no good..
haha..
but actually..
i can understand what i studied..
but..
in exam can i write it all out or not?
that another point~~
hahaha...
so please wish mii luck that i wont forget what i study
i working my best to not fail in this sem..
after exam gonna go for intern dy~~
i already start to miss everyone...
especially HIM...
haiz~~
ganbate~~

is time~~

is time for me to really let go everything..
nothing is belongs to mii anymore..
nothing~
he having new one..
and i think the one with him now will surely get more happiness then i do
she will never have my experience with him
she will never get hurt from him as mii
she will never felt the pain i have
she will only live more happy with him
i've never know that my heart will so hell pain when i get knew about it
i hope it all not true but....
it doesn't work what i thought....
what i can do now is just give him all my wishes..
but still i wish is all not true..
can it be all not true?
can it be?
someone please come to me and say "yes" please~~~

but i know there wont be a day~~
it wont..
what i can do is just stay normally..
with smile
although it may look fake to him
but
that what i can do..
stay happy please...

i wish my tears can no more dropping for you
no more..
that the last time i drop my tears for you...
but..
how many times i said that out?
and how many times i follow what i said?
if i do there wont be no more tears on that day~
but..
tears is still rolling in my eyes..
dont fall..
please just dont fall..

and oppsy it fall~~
once again i cried....

someone asked mii how many times i cried for him since i know him
and i told "is uncountable"
until i also forget about how many times..
but...
so what?
ya
so what~~~

let it be...
munz.
just please let go..
let go~~~

im sorry that i never keep my promise for giving up you..
but i already tried~~~

i really wish to know who is she~~
i really wish to know...
give up please...

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

an outing with xiao hui

今天一点多出门
今天出街的目的是陪xiaohui买相机的啦~
本来约定的时间更早
但她是个懒猪
我们原谅她好不??
LRT 载了她后我们先到 ATM 提钱
之后就直接往金河出发鲁
今天我们的目的是她要买相机
所以很自然的我们就朝相机店开始
可是先先的2家店都没有她要买的那一部
之后就去到了大门口那间
可是看来看去她还是选择了别一架
我们逗留在那家店有至少一小时吧~~
付了钱后我们就到处逛逛咯~
她看中了几件衣服
一直犹豫着要不要买
之后我们就先去吃东西咯
我们上到了不懂第几楼
有几家新开的点
我们就去了"台湾风味馆"

这就是他们家的餐牌咯

我的炸酱饭

她的卤肉饭
我们还叫了炸鸡排
东西还不错吃的说
有机会可以去吃吃的
但原谅我忘了是在第几楼@@
之后我们就继续逛我们的街
我还买了眼镜呢^^

还是这个最适合我^^
之后就是假睫毛咯
最近爱上假睫毛
毕竟不用那么麻烦
粘粘浆糊吹一吹粘一年就好了^^

那又不止这一盒
还有一排在xiaohui那里
超便宜
一盒才RM10
一面有10对捏
有便宜的说^^
之后我们就走去parkson哪里咯
因为她要买钱包
我个人也是觉得她的皮包也是时候换了啦
但选来选去她还是拿不定注意
最后还是没买
走出去后我们又回到去1楼买她刚刚看中但没买的衣服
但在那之前我们先走去parking一趟
因为我们竟然没有人记得车park在那里了
真的有很糊涂@@
之后还好还是找到了
上回楼买了她的衣服后我们就各自回家了
之后我就到妹妹的补习中心在她咯
途中还和宝贝聊了电话^^

P/S: 考试要到了,
大家加油哦^^


带上眼镜的我
现在可以不化妆了
因为最经很懒
就连今天出街我也没化^^