not real~~

is that possible for me to believe that everything is not real
recently i already not in a good mood
and yet still i receiving such scary news
i hope i not real
i hope that everything happening now is not fit what the conclusion
i hope it not real
everything
please
just dont be real
i will check
and i wont want ur accompany...
i really dont need..
not i angry you or what
is just i dont want you right by myside..
cause you will only giving me stress..
what is all what i never tell you
i dont know how to say.
but..
i hope i can have time for me to be clear with everything
please
all just fake
pls~~~

pray hard~~