our relation is back to normal now... friend, normal friend, normal best friend, and not more then...
finally i throw out everything to him with someone pushing me to crazy that few days! i really have no idea what is the purpose of she showing off in front of me few days and it really do putting me mad.... in fact then i just throw out whatever to him... i told him my feel, told him about our relation is really that slur enough until everyone that misunderstand on us... but we never care once before of those misapprehension that people think of us... we just let it be and continue to remain everything as usual...
since the week i knew him, shortly we started with a singularity friendship with him... at first i was really hate him because he really made me do so... i was thinking that how can a guy being so playboy with a just meet friend.. she show me his care, showing me his treat, showing me lot and lot more that things that more then friend... how and why i said so? not to mention here, but i think we will be clear with everything that what we had go through...
allow me to remind back some of it.
first time we go ktv, you really cant imagine that how sweet we were before when we still a NORMAL friend... he allowed me to lay on his leg and his hand can naturally place around my face.. i admit that are sweet enough so can affect people misunderstand on our relation! but we both are really just friend that moment...*all the while we are just friend*... he will giving me warmth when i felt cold... he giving me his smooth voice while facing him when we both having an eye contact... proving me that he is strong enough to protect... when on the way back, we both were holding our hand and laying on both shoulder... and the moment before he reach home, he drop a kiss onto my cheek... and i do so... the moment after he leave, i was curious with what our relation actually is...
again, we like to stick with each other all the while... we like to talk crab, like to share, like to look at each other and laugh at each other, lot and lot more... we also do kissed ... heemmm.... but i can said that we are just still friend...
lot of reflect back that me and him pop out now... i thinking how complicated he is, i thinking how complicated we are, thinking lot of sweetness we had, thinking lots of fun and sadness we share... our memories bring my tears down lot...
i cant type anymore... cox my tears falling insurgently now... i always failed to control my tears all the while... and so for today... hahahaha... i think this is the last time i recall back things happened between you and me, i hoping this is the last time i cry for you cox of recalling our memories...
dont tell me that I'm your BEST FRIEND and you doesn't actually really know what BEST FRIEND stand for... i can tell you that we do totally did more then friends okays?? please be clear and you can just recall back your brain as well... think y i fall for you... think how close we are.. think the way our friendship is... think... just recall back and think!!! dont be surprice of what pop out to your mind... that what we did in the pass.. and please ask yourself, is that more then friend... dont always tell me that i misunderstand of the way you treat me, be clear of how you do treat me!!! please make yourself clear before you use the word "misunderstand"...
and i admit that sometimes i care too much.. but now.. i wont being so concert and attention anymore...
ofcox we are still friend... bear in mind that what our conversation that middle of the night ya... wakaka.. keep our promise orhx... wakakkaa...
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