damn it,,, what the hech is going on!!!!

omg!omg!omg!omg!
what going on with me???
am i having fever or something??
why am i keep thinking the person that will not supposed to be together?
i very clear and know that i not admire him or what...
but just don't know why i will non stop thinking of him now...
i always used to think what going on with him..
i always used to think what he doing all the time...
i also used to think did he miss me just for a single minute...
i thought that i fall for him...
actually i was keep on asking myself is this why i always care for him is love or like...
but i get a very clear answer from my heart is-NO-
but why?
but why will i keep on thinking of him...
but why he always in my mind...
but why all this happen?
lots of you also thinking that we already in couple..
but both we know that our relation is just friend...
normal or may be close friend...
may be in the earlier time we did something that already crossed the limit line...
but...
that was just an accidence...
we both know that and also keeping it as a secret...
we both didn't mention any about it any more since that day it happened...
the distance of us is really like moving far from each other...
i hate that feeling that you not staying by my side any more...
i hate whatever it is happening on or going now...
i hate the distance that we having now...
i hate everything....
everything that brought me far away from you....
i really hate it...
but what can i do?
by all the time i was just like acting doesn't matter of what is happening...
i don't know how long i can stand for this everything...
i don't know why will came in to this situation...
i just hope i will find the way to solve the problem...
i know i not fall for you...
i sure i not...
i know i not...
i.....
i....
i not sure of anything any more......