心情不好

真的不知怎么搞的

我的心情真的是糟糕到谷底

我一点耐心都没有

我不能逼自己笑

我的眉头一直深锁

总之就看什么都不顺眼

我甚至不能容许有人站在我身边妨碍着我

这样反而让我更加的心烦躁

我真的很想要喊出来

可是我不能

这样的憋着自己我真的很辛苦

眼眶是湿的

但泪只能在里边打转

我不会容许它滴落

因为没必要

到底是为了什么我真的一点儿头绪都没有

是不够睡吗??

还是太多事情在烦着了

很想要离开这里

可是

我却找不到更好的地方落脚

怎么能想象现在的自己

想到还要继续留下的自己

竟可以愤怒的想把自己掐死 

真的搞不懂现在的自己要的是什么

真的搞不懂自己还想怎样

我越来越没有方向了

我真的不知道自己目的地在哪里了

到底有没有一道光能指引我

这样的日子

我真的不想要了

一点也满足

一点意义也都没有

已经10月将至了

我却还是一个无用的人儿

迷失。

雯字

changed!!!

finally,

spend almost 3 hours on the net try to look for awesome template for my blog

unfortunately i could't get any

there is plenty of blog templates sample on the net

but,

there is non that i like the most

so lastly decided to use the blog own template

by just modifying the font color, size ect ect

i love my blog now.

although its not really the nice or special but atleast something from today

will still continue to keep looking for awesome template

just to make myself back to my own sweet blog

to note down my daily just like my dairy do~

is time to go home~

im just so sleepy as i couldn't fall sleep last night. 

and im proud of myself i still can stand until this hour at work

kekeke

bye blog

will visit and update you often k

Liz_Love :)

我回来了

这次我真的希望我真的回来了

我很想念你了我亲爱的部落格

曾经你是我最要好的观众

你只会无时无刻的看着我的喜怒哀乐

也是我和我朋友间的沟通工具

那天某个夜里

我看回以前自己的部落格

很多的回忆突然涌现

那时的自己才想起为什么当初的自己会那么热爱写部落

现在我懂了

现在的我想起来了

因为本人我的记忆量有限

所以

如果没有了这里

我也算没有回忆了

也对

在每个没有记录的部落里

我真的忘了之间发生了什么事了

不过

没关系

现在的我回来啦

继续我疯狂的部落之路

就为了让自己的回忆充实些

不留白!!!!!!

所以

我一定会尽我所能的update update自己

以后

我也会知道自己好不好嘛

嘻嘻

Dec

向回忆不留白迈进

要努力哟

(a◕‿◕a)

munz

第100天

看了tittle都知道这篇是关于我和我的他了啦

我们打打闹闹的在一起100天了耶

我其实有想过或许我们并不会长久的

毕竟我们有许多不一样的想法和背景

而且

在这短短100天的日子里

我们也闹了几次的冷战

他的人

永远都是一点sense of urgency都没有的人

这让我很头痛也不知吵了多少回架了

但他好像是被我给骂习惯了

当我正在生气的时候他却还可以笑着地看着我

你说

我还凶得下去吗???

有时候

我其实会觉得我对他是有些许的过分

因为有时我真的会说出很过分的话

他只会安静的不出一句话

但看着他快要哭的表情我还是一句道歉都没有

但最后

我还是会摸摸他大大的都问他一句“还好吗?”

他也就这样的笑了

庆幸的是我们目前都还没有吵过多大的架

而且每每闹别扭的时候我们都是即可言和

这算是简单的珍惜吧

那傻瓜和他的家人才刚从泰国回来

说好了不许乱乱买东西回来的他还是不听话

谢谢你买回来的手信和你送我的礼物哦

我有很喜欢了

是我谢谢得没诚意*我承认*

他还说泰国的庙特别灵

所以他有很诚意的祈祷祈祷

没想到他其中祈祷有我在内呢

平时不看似不在乎的他

原来也是会担心我跑路的一天哟

怎么样

没想到我们能走到3个月吧

是他交 我的

“简单就好，没有复杂才幸福”

就因为那句话而在一起了

那我们就一天天的数

数着我们会有多少个100天咯

要继续爱我哦

^^

continually_Love 

(a◕‿◕a)munz

流泪了

我抱着小肥哭了

今天是我第一次因为我们而流泪

流着的是开心却又担心

我们在一起的即将一个月

我几乎每天都在想

这笨蛋到底会爱我几久

其实不是我想这样想

我也不是特地有这样的想法

怪就在之前那一段不应该有的感情太过认真

我坦诚

现在对这个他还没有还没很深

但

我知道日子久了

对他的喜欢甚至是爱都会到无法自拔的程度

我不敢去想

因为我不想有了希望却换来绝望

站得越高就跌得越痛

我已经不能承受任何的痛了

我每次问他

你没有后悔过决定和我在一起吗。。

每一次他的答案都是一样的“没有”

我很常对他发脾气

虽然不是很大

可是足以让他难过

为的就是让他退缩

为的就是让他看清我

没想到他还是告诉我他没在怕

他越是对我好越是迁就我

我其实越难过

我会依赖

我会渴望更多

我会不停的要

一旦少了什么我都回不安

我或许是个不适合恋爱的人呗

我或许也不过想多了

谢谢他对我的认真

谢谢他对我的不死心

谢谢他做了一只打不死的小肥强

我会努力忘掉不该记的

我会努力学会简单

我不再炫耀不再复杂

简单的幸福已经很足够了

我会加油

一起努力加油呗我的爱...

文之心

munz :)

its July

Dear blog,

I'm so sorry that i dumped you for so long since March. I'm so sorry that i can't keep my promise to keep you update. I'm so sorry that you are not know me well any more. But i'm sure even i did this you will still forgive me, cause i'm you and i am forgiving myself. 

Let me update you what actually going on to me recently. I'm still still with The Ritz as a Guest Service. But am really planning to leave that nightmare place soon. *i seriously hopping is sooner possible* that why i'm actually searching for new job. But..... i really can't just simply find one that i like one. I just can't find the place where i love the environment. Maybe im being in the hotel Front line for years, so and i used to it with talking crab with people around. *i'm just enjoy talking :)* . Is hardly for me to search for a so called office job that want me to stick my ass on the chair in front of the computer for 8 hours maybe, it seriously kills me and i rather suicide... hahahaha..Yet, i know that i can find a job that i can work at least one year. so... wait for my update kay :)

Then... im facing some friendship problem you know? kind of sad when you treated someone good and you get betray. you know the feeling of BETRAY? hhheeemmm.. can say is... DAMN hurt lur.. but is okays.. i do meet and hang out with new friends. which i happily stick together with them. they so alot of stupid stuff together with me. we have alot of plan that we following. and ofcox non stop Gossiping... hahahahha

Now, i have a new relation too. His name is Jacob. A very cute guy. A right one. i decided to put down the relation that lasted for only one year and actually not suppose to have. Its hurt me alot until i cannot afford to go in any relation. But he came to me in a very sudden. I never thought that we will be together. First of all, he is 2 years younger than i, which is i kind of mind. but, he shows me that our age means nothing. he show his maturity always which i never see before when we are still friend. Then, he always got scolded by me even sometimes with no reason yet he still smiling. He is just another one so not my type but we go for each other. Its the 3rd week now we've been together. Im glad to have him by my side. even he is not that strong yet to protect me, but he gave me colorful life when im in black and white, he cook me maggie when im hungry, he offer me biting when im moody, trying his best to make jokes in front of me even every times he failed. but, im seriously happy to have him. i dont know how far will we go.. but he teaches me to enjoy simplest life that we can :)

okay.. lets stop now k.. i promise to visit and update you frequently as i can. i know i always drop my promised and you do upset.. but i will surely try my best.

Best Regards,

Munz with love

updates!!!!

hey yo!!!

is me again

dont be surprise

am just actually trying my very best to achieve what i said

i wanna update my blog more frequently^^

yesterday night shift hell busy until i really wanna cry

officially work from 9pm to 9am

extra 4 hours ot..

i MUST claim all my OT in this stupid OT months

reach home then sleep for short while then have to wake up to center to attend meeting

today my best friend as well as my upline got recognize as Ruby Executive

he look so confidence up there at the stage

yea

when euu have the power of success

you can show whatever LC face euu want

cause people down the stage wont talk bad about you

they just will envy

cause im one of them too

how i wish there is one day i back to the stage that belongs to me

i need to find back my previous confidence

even today

i stand on the stage

i felt damn nervous and dont know what the shift am i actually talking about

yet

i still tried my best to SPEAK

i love the feeling that everyone claps for you after your speech

everyone showing their support to you 

and also giving you confidence

think twice

how come others people they can do it and why cant i???

yes...

if i put a little more effort

RE is not that far away from me

i need to fight

cause i have such a success uplines

which can really lead me to my success

i have dreams

everyone do

but

i dont want to be that person just standing or laying down there for dream and do nothing

and this company i found is really helping people to success

helping people to transform

helping people to believe

and giving everyone to DREAM

me and my fellow net-workers having a same dream

3 years later

we will driving our very own brand new and branded car [oooo]

go wherever we want to

do whatever we want to

dream whatever we can

that the feeling

i really dont want to stand here and dream and wait for my dream

i wanna chase for my dream

to ensure it come true earlier then i though!

i know it can and i ensure it can!

this is my last months on TRA

im so excited for my last result!!!

and also cant wait to be recognize as RE

together with my dear 283

and then that the time for us to get our BIKINI ready

for a sunshine beach trip with all the ST $4000 achiever

ready

get

set 

go!!!!!!!

fight

for my own future

for my family

for my DREAMS

dear 283,

show me more on your confidence

people that will affect you

just left him behind

remember

{成功的人是先相信才看到

一般的人是看到了才相信

失败的人是看到了也不要去相信}

since we know where we are

so

坚持到底

we do very envy dexter today

and i believe that we can be another him on stage!!!!

believe the system

believe people that brings you in

believe people that works together with you

and believe people that success together with you and me

[ oooo ]

not a impossible dream

dare to dream for ur dream

we can success to achieve it

go double

remember what we really want!!!

ganbate

to people who bring me in

thank you so much

you guys really effect me alot

from the very ignoring until now extremely enjoy!!

thank to you all

remember

now herewith my promise

i will success

together with all my up and down line

i want success

and i know i can

dexter!!!!

...you r my target...