sorry...

yesterday finally finished my final for the year one last semester... taking 4 resit paper... plus 3 subject papers...guess what? i manage to do well in 5 out of the 7 papers... *congrats*... what happened to the others 2? i do mentioned in my previous post and don't wish to repeat one more time here... with my lately mood i manage to do well for the last paper, seriously a little happy with it... but unfortunately... i do forget some.. BUT!!! still i can pass.. no worry^^,
besides... supposed to be with baobei since yesterday... and today will going to Klang and tomorrow, genting... but things do mess up with my mistake!!! i'm sorry to bough you both in trouble... i know you both do forgive me... i knew you both do helping me... serious... don't think that i angry at you both, i really din... i only angry at myself... angry at why not telling you both the truth earlier... maybe will be some help with the situations... beside.. i too disappointed on my own... i don't really know all this will happen... but it seems happened!!!

you both,

thankz for the helping yesterday... and remember keep what we knew... i really don't know this will bough this big of problems... i should have tell earlier... i should have say out... but i din... cox in the very first i don't wish to put you both in this trouble i made... but in the end... you both in!!! kay, it do already happened and passed... kay... i knew that i'm still in my moody mood... but i and both you also cant do anythings right after that... so.. just let me be what i am now... some days later might be better to go... and so how i got no more freedom any more... not becox of you both is just becox of myself... so.. please... just please don't invite me to any gathering you all planning in the future... it is a impossible to let me join... but... you guys can come to visit me at my place as you both had mentioned to me you both will do so... hope you both will enjoy the trip tomorrow and please... don't phone me up that moment... i will never know my feelings tomorrow... since i already cried so few days... actually just now on phone with you both, my tears still dropping... but i choose to hide.. although you both asked, still i said no... cox i don't want you both to worry me anymore... and what... i will remember what i had promised to you both... i will always remember...

to Eddie,

sorry i mess up our plan cox of my mistake... i knew you being disappointed cox you told me yesterday night... but can you imagine my feelings? i believe that you knew that how i wish to go rite? so now, i can't manage to join... just try to think of my feelings! i happy and thx for the understanding about late yesterday... although you felt not so happy still you comfort me... but still sorry that i can't share all with you... i knew you very wish to know what happened to me... i wish to share with you too... as you said... we got no secret rite? but somehow, you still hiding from me... am i rite? so... why euu do hide things from me? think of it... then you will know why i hide... but... i not wanted to hide it, is just hard to tell out... since yesterday we broke down our conversation with ur out of battery phone.. then i din manage to tell you all... i sorry for i bough you in to trouble as well... i sorry for everything as well... i knew euu kinda in trouble to pick up 283... Eddie... sorry..

to 283,

sorry i made you promise and i wont be able to achieve it in this moment... i really really sorry for that... thx for chatting with me the whole afternoon and sharing your stories with me... i really hate of myself now becox of all the promise i made you... i hate people give me promise that they can't achieve for me... and now... i did this to you... i promised to bring you to have nice memories in KL night... but in the end i gave you nothing... i bough you from the top of the sky and immediately to the ground!!! its painful rite? ya.. i knew... cox im in the feelings now... this is the second time!!!!! what a sick i am??? the second promise and i do not achieve it... but... i know you will still enjoy with my gang since they also friendly as me and you... especially baobei and karman that i always used to mention to you... just go and play with them.. you will find lots of fun... really thx for the forgiving and also the understand!!! once again... sorry...

to lingzzz,

please just don't blame yourself... is really not your fault... i am the one who should say sorry to you... and also still thx for the *hugs* you gave to comfort me... tough alots!!! really... but truly... i seriously need a real actual hug... i really need it... but i just manage to hug my pillows and bears i have!!! they are the only things that giving me hugs without temperature but seriously, its warmth enough... we both really used to when comes to problem then will stand together arr... why lar... but... still i happy with it... cox we thinking both us the the helpfull friends to each other... is this so called *患难之交*... hahaha... lame rite? but who cares... we are!!! lingzzz.. love euu much...


and to people who going genting tomorrow... hey hey.. sorry i plan this trip and i cant go... sorry for i ffk and asked you all not to do so but i did!!! sorry sorry and sorry... but without me doesn't meant everything marr... you all still can enjoy hapily in the trip i organized... just hope and wish you all have a nice and fun trip there... sorry for made you all disapointed!!! so sorry...

sorry everyone

ε(•̮̮̃•̃)з

munz

5月了!!!

这么快的又到5月了咧...
可是本人我捏还是还没有那个闲时来写blog咧
不是我想让我亲爱的blog凋空的
只是本人偶还在考试期间啦
will be back soon~~
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈
为什么今天突然上来呢?
唉~~~
我很伤心啊...
今天不懂吃了什么sai...
今天考2科
我2科都fail定了啦~~~
首先是那科food ingredient...
我的妈妈啊~~~
我真的有在读书的咧..
我真的有在背的咧...
真的有~~~
可是刚刚在考场里
翻开考卷纸的那一刻
我愣住了~~~
为什么??
没别的原因啦
就因为
我不会咯~~~
面对考试纸
啊~~~~
就尽我所能的做完咯
我已经把我会的都写下去了
刚刚好用了半个小时而已
我做完了
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈
好笑的是我竟然能够笑笑的交上再离开
朋友们
你们应该以为我会做才会笑得如此灿烂吧
大错特错啦
我不会
阿猪先生
我不想酱早出来的咯
只是我是在写不出东西了啦
我不如早点出来读我的HI
接下来也一样
我也背了很多
可是出我背过的也很少
还好还有一些是最后一秒前看过的...
做完后我把分数算了算
糟了~~~
又不够分...
真的还差6分我就能过了..
可是我完全不敢想象
现在resit不是rm50那么少啊
而是rm80啊~~~~~
我没那么有钱啦拜托...
现在又必须另外存钱补考了
这次又考不好我能怪谁??
我明明答应过自己这个学期不能fail的咯
可是很明显的
我做不到了
我对不起对我抱着期望的你们
我对不起我自己
我对不起你的用心
我还是必须被人瞧不起
T.T
算了啦
现在就剩最后一科了
把它好好读好好考吧
我能的...

在此想向某先生公开道歉,
我知道你会时常来看我的blog
所以我想在这里和你说声对不起
昨天你打给我的时候我发了你的脾气
我不想的
我真的不想的
因为我真的读到太压力了
很压力
到我控制不了我自己
所以
对不起
真的对不起
昨天我有上网
你也在
可是
这是第一次你不找我聊天
我真的很感内疚
我应该好好的控制下自己的脾气的
希望你能原谅我咯
我不想失去多一个朋友
我们认识那么多年了
难道朋友做假的吗?
D先生,
对不起...

压力~~~

ε(•̮̮̃•̃)з

munz

天空^^

最近受了宝贝的影响
影响什么??
就是很爱拍天空咯

这张呢就是那天在eddie家读完书看到的天空
很有型对不对??
看看看
那道光照射下来
真的有很美

最近我也常看到彩虹呢
有看到吗??
虽然只是半条..
但真的有很美
我还通知宝贝和eddie呢...

夕阳!!!
昨天回家赛车途中拍的!!1
还有很多..

途中的树..
都好高的说!!!


不是不专心驾驶啦..
而是在赛车
刚好阳光照到我
不就拍咯!!!


我又看到彩虹了!!!!!!!
哈哈哈


天空..
那片云其实很特别
可是我拍到不好看!!


有很大片云!!!
美...
加上夕阳


棒棒棒棒棒!!!!
有没有很赞??
虽然是塞着回
可是
还是觉得幸福捏
但是..
可以不要天天这样塞吗??
会神经病的捏!!!

ε(•̮̮̃•̃)з

munz

untrusted and misunderstanded

i knew since long time ago already you not trust on me....
cox you though that whenever i told you somethings also a LIE...
i admit that sometimes i really did somethings wrongly but that doesn't meant always...
i don't wish all this misunderstanding spoil our relationship...
you are my mom..
we will be living with the family for the whole life...
no matter its like or dislike,
yet still we have to be with each other...
i know you do care about me,
i know you do love me,
i know you do concern me,
but mom,
please just don't be like today...
how can you test me like that?
can you just ask whatever you want to know?
is that i'm that strange to you until you can't speak with me?
this is not the first time that you not asking me by wanna know my things..
i don't know what going on..
you said you so called comprehend me well..
but mom,
how come you don't know what will i feel when tested from you like that?
do you know that is really very weird?
can mom you recall back what you did just know?
how if some days i or others doing back the same thing to you?
i really sick of all that..
my tears really wall like no one business..
you dont know all that...
you dont know that how pain my heart is..
you dont know that how offensive it is...
you really dont know everything...
i really just cant stop my tears...
i dont know how long i cried for that...
can said that my tears is still falling...
since afternoon until now...
what a sick human i am!!!
what are the problem actually is?
you actually not that comprehend me as you though..
you actually not that understand me as you thought...
somethings is actually hard to explain and hard to express...
but still i know to respect you...
mom,
some question i really wish to get it know from you....
but i never know how to ask..
i think you will never give me an answer as well..

as my mom,
- how do you think a daughter like me to you?
- can we actually run our relation just like friends?
- have you ever forgive that what i had did wrong?
- why you just can't ask me whatever you want to know?
- why every time also ask other about me?
- why just now you treat me like that?
- why whenever problems happened you will first though is me?
- why will the relation between you and me so different from the others sisters?
- lots and lots more...

can said that, as a daughter like me, i am a FAILURE!!!
i always brought troubles to the family...
always made mom and dad angry..
din get any good result before...
i even run away from home before...
but no matter how,
i still is the member of this family..
i still staying here for now and forever...
this is my home...
but why still i wish to skip away from home?
i knew that each and every family have their own role, rules and regulation to play...
but can said that my home still is the very old school type of regulation
sometimes i do really tired of all this...
still remember that my dad asked me a question,
"you hope that i always outstation and never wanna care about you izzit?"
i still remember that my first reaction and answer is "NO!"
ya...
i really don't wish so..
like that situation,
is no different to whom who had no dad...
*sorry i said that*
i know that i wont be facing them in my whole life..
but i wish they will have a good memories of me and the family in their whole life!!!
but too bad that i did something wrongly and made them having bad impression of me..
is that really once wrong means forever?
mom,
sometimes i really wish that i can have a good communication with you...
i really hope that you can really understand me well and to me as well..
but just how come that we like blocking by something that we cant communicate?
i dont wanna be like just now..
i really got no idea how to face you...
sitting in front of you...
my heart really pain to the max...

can we communicate?

ε(•̮̮̃•̃)з

munz

Tagged!!!

001. Real Name : Pui Mun
002. Nickname(s) : depend on different group of people what they name me.
003. Age : still 19?!
004. Zodiac Sign : Cancer
005. Male or Female : Female lar...
006. Elementary : forget the name...
007. Middle School: SRJK(C)On Pong
008. High School : SMK BBA --> SSG
009. College School : tarc college
010. Hair colour : black
011. Long or Short : middle long*but short for me*
012. Loud or Quiet : hahaha... who knows??
013. Sweats or Jeans : both
014. Phone or Camera : phone with camera!!! wakakaka
015. Health Freak : ... ... ...
016. Drink or Smoke : Drink, anti-smoking
017. Do you have a crush on someone : don't really know
018. Eat or Drink : both lor... can't leave without this 2 things rite?
019. Piercings : 12
020. Tattoos : No, getting one soon
021. Social or Anti-Social: depends
022. First Piercing : form 1 if not mistaken
023. First Relationship : form 1
024. First Best Friend : lots!!
025. First Award : forgotten
026. First Kiss : him
027. First Pet : hippo*a dog*
028. First Big Vacation : so far still a small vacation!
029. First Love at first sight: Low probability
030. First Big Birthday : every celebration actually

currently
049. Eating : Porridge
050. Drink : sky juice
051. Excitement Level : my Klang and Genting Trip!!!
052. I’m about to : study for tomorrow's exam!
053. Listening to : nothing right now
054. Plan for today : study my FOM
055. Waiting for : him?!!
056. Energy Level : zero
057. Thinking of someone: yes
058. Want kids? : after my marriage can?
059. Want to get married?: not now!
060. Careers in mind? : definitely

Which is better in the boy/girl you like
068. Lips or Eyes? : Eyes
069. Romantic or Funny? : both
070. Shorter or Taller? : is above 175 consider tall?
071. Protective or Caring? : BOTH
072. Romantic or Spontaneous? : spontaneous
073. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms?: emm.. depends
074. Sensitive or Loud? : emm...
075. Hook-up or Relationship? : Relationship
076. Trouble Maker or Hesitant? : no please

Have you ever
080. Lost glasses or contacts : nope
081. Ran away from home : yup
082. Held a gun/knife for self defence: definitely no
083. Killed somebody : if yes i wont be here now!
084. Broken someone’s heart : i think so
085. Been arrested : of??
087. Cried when someone died : ofcox will lar..

Do you believe in
089. Yourself : Yup
090. Miracles : depends
091. Love at first sight: depends
092. Heaven : yup
093. Santa Claus : haha... no
094. Tooth Fairy : no, cox tried before
095. Kiss in the first date: depends

Truthfully
097. Is there someone you would want to be with right now? : Yes
098. Are you seriously happy with where you’re in life now? : emm... ya?!
099. Do you believe in God? : haha... yes, but no gods come help me
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people: Eddie, 283, Karman, 宝贝, lingzzz, Xiaohui, Janice, 鬼鬼, Rainbow, n, evefu.

一位已经死去的１７岁少女的刻骨铭心的爱情创作 - 最后一次

在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去

先走了 去了好远的地方
不能再陪你看日出 等不到天亮
所有回忆 抹去 却并不容易
生死由天决定 不要太伤心
在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去

在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去
我 永远 爱你。

crazy stuff day^^

hahahaha... come with normal thingy first... went baobei's house with Karman at about 11 plus i think.. hhaha... when reach... mummy.. i mean dennis*hopefully i did not spelled his name wrongly* is cooking at the kitchen... so the naughty me went to disturb... he was cooking the egg for his i dont know breakfast or lunch... but i think possibility to be breakfast cox i just seems to be 11 plus... hahahaha... i actually just said said that i want the egg with bread... who know he really do it for me... so taughing lar.. thanks alot ya... hehehe... and what.. he cut his hair.. and when i asked, he told me that the hair drop off it own.. but when others asked, he replied in a normal way and said that "yalarr.. i cut my hair.." is that any problem going on that makes him spoke so different to me? hahaha... i have no idea.. but i just can say the he is so damn CUTE and a shy shy man.. wakakaka...

this is the thingi i deception from mummy... wakakaka... he actually kinda kind person... wakakaka... nolonger then finally Eddie the darling came with the empty tummy!!! he tought that i will believe that he come with after a curry puff... hello, just to tell you.. i wont believe in you larr MR.. wakakakaka.. then we started our study at baobei's room... kinda amount of ppl at baobei's house today... daddy's friends outside the room... i dont know who are they... then KaiTeng... then ppl who in baobei's room are Karman, Baobei herself, Rainbow, Sifu, ahmun*not mii*, mummy*dennis*, the darling*eddie* and me.. wow.. i totally of of my mind on how to study with so damn many of peoples.. so when halfway with our study i decided to leave with eddie and continue study at his place... but later received a msg from miss lame-kar-man.. she asked:
"wanna buy a ice-cream cake later?"
"dont should out ya.....blablabla..."
wow... what a good suggestion right? but she dont know that i will go off with eddie.. so then i invite her to join us study as well... hahaha... so after the lunch at Spice and Chill with the gang.. then the 3 of us go off with just a BYE!!! wakakaka.. then went to the cake shop before go to eddie's place.. hehehehe... it's not a very big cake actually.. just a 1/2 KG... hahahaha...

xiao huang.. if i not mistaken about it's name.. see how daddy hang it.. wakakaka...


here come the cake... look so nice rite??? kakaka


ahahahaha.. the cake with mii!!!


here we go.. いたらきます*itarakimasu*


eddie the camera man!!!


what a big mouth i had!!! wakakaka...


so called *concern* with the cake


feeding!!!hahaha but he actually just act to eat!!!


the cake actually haven been finish!!! still at his house!!! wakakaka.. but i think he will curi makan de larr.. hehehe.. cox just now he already curi makan the chocolate!!!! wakakaka... some more his action damn damn cute lorr... i dont know how to discribe... but.. he is damn damn CUTE!!! hahahahahahaha...

haiz... CS... haven finish study leh... look easy while reading.. but it actually hard while exam!!! hahahaha.. how good if my brain is complicated like someone's!!! haiz.. but it's impossible!!!! haiz... so.. have to work more harder!!! but this days seems like dont have the heart to focus on!!! SHIT larr.. really damn SHIT!!!!!! how am i going to sit for the exam?? haiz.. said that dont want any fail but din study hard also!!! Fxxx larr... hahahahaha...

to baobei,
sorry that i leave your place while halfway study!!! cox i really cant concern with so many ppl in a room... i know i do book to study with you guys at first... but in the end i just went off with just a simple BYE.. if not i really dont think i can study... sorry ya baobei... maybe next time we study again with not such a big group like today... hahahahahaha... hey hey.. dont stress yourself up as well... k? just do our best lorr... hahahahaha...

wil finish the cake tomorrow..
eddie...
dont add ur *cake* ya..

ε(•̮̮̃•̃)з

munz